UGHH.
Okay. I doubt people are gonna read this but whatever.
Today I was happy for a little while which was completely unusual.
Except there were some points today when I was kind of upset.
I've been feeling guilty this entire weekend. I don't want to get into it,
firstly because I don't need people knowing every aspect of my life, and
also because if noone reads this [which probably will be the case] - then
why do I need to remind myself why I feel guilty?
I feel like such a bad person, and I really don't know why/how I did what I did.
It's not even like I hang out with them every weekend. In my position, a lot of
people would just forget about them since they don't hang out with them often.
But I still felt completely horrible and guilty. I felt like a terrible person,
and I would understand 100% if none of them ever talked to me again,
which is basically happening i think.
I really don't know what to do... I'm too scared of confrontation to say or do
anything. I kind of have an explanation for one thing that happened, but I
don't feel like using excuses to get around it. I am completely at fault,
and I am taking responsibility for my stupid choices. Sorry <3