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i need to get away from here so i can grow up. i'm scared about going away for college, but i know if i didn't, i would stick with most of the same people and keep being really dependent and would grow up the same way as everyone else around here and not the way God wants to grow me up. also, i keep having really irrational thoughts or wanting to do stupid things i know i would regret, just because they're the things to do in high school. i don't really want to do those things, they just keep popping into my head. i'm totally against the whole "this is what high school kids are supposed to be like" mentality, but i'm afraid, if given the proper situation, i won't do what i need to do. that's why i need to grow up. and i need to learn to be a better writer because i suck at writing. that's all.