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1. i wish i were in love right now. i'm bothered by the fact that it's been over two years since i've been interested enough in someone to see the possibility of even dating him. i mean...i guess it's good because i stay out of time-wasting relationships. i'm not one to date a person i'm not truly interested in, but it does get pretty old not being romantically interested in guys past how cute they are. i know i'm waiting for the right time and person, but could they both speed it up a little bit?
2. i want to go on journeys and travel all around the world and help people and meet new people. when i say that, a lot of people ask me if it's because i want to "find myself." it isn't. it's because i already know who i am, but it's hard to be that person here. i know my heart's desires come from God, but i get so distracted and caught up in little bitty things that i keep losing them and myself.
3. i'm ready to graduate. i'm considering not getting my ib diploma because i did a pretty bad job on my extended essay. i could probably live with that, just as long as i graduate. i'm 100% certain that if i do get it, the ee part will say whatever the lowest thing it can say is. i'll just put a smiley sticker on it. : )
4. i really had a good Christmas. i love my family and my friends and their families. i love God too, mostly. I really felt God's grace a lot this year, especially about Christmas. it's been a good time.
5. i'm making new years' resolutions. i want to really stick to them. seriously. i didn't make any this year, but i am this time--serious ones. i need to grow up. i need next year to be better than this year because i did some pretty stupid things this year. i've gotta make up for lost sense.
merry Christmas and happy new year!
