Memories from old life school and my daily adventures
I It's been almost three months since I graduated and a part of me still doesn't get it.
Next year I won't have to go up and down the stairs for each class nor I will encounter creepy drawings on the floors.I won't meet my friends first thing in the morning to talk about random things.The teacher will not be paranoid about people sitting on her chair,Viviana won't have to express her desire to go and all that free time we used to have in some classes will disapear.
Because that was one chapter of my life that's closed.A new one will open on August.
This chapter will have special appearances by my friends in it but they won't be recurring.The phone will be my friend ,the email will be too and I will learn to love/hate college.Because honestly,we always have love/hate relationships with the school ect we go to.Its what maks life fun.
Graduation Day was inbelievable.Probably because everyone looked so pretty and so grown-up.Yesterday they were playing with toys and talking about pop bands.No its all about cars,licenses,college.The fun is still ith them though but they are so different.I wish I could have gonne to some and hugged them goodbye.I don't feel like I said goodbye to everyone I cared about.Maybe they'll forget about the tiny girl(as Robert ued o tell me) who was quiet (History teacher),wanted to learn languages and help everyone with em(Vivi),the girl who gave random trivia(Annie) and that no one could figure out(Cory).
And maybe that's a really good thing because in a few years,I'll be different.Maybe even better than I was back then.
This summer has helped me get back to normal.Because last year I really lost control.I don't know if it was that it was the senior year fact,the fact that I as scared of being alone,the fact that I wouldn't help myself because of issues Ive had.The thing was that I got lost and I mean really.
I learned last year that when you feel bad ,if you feel that way long enough your body will get sick with you.And that means lots of prescriptions,bloodtests,visits to quiet doctors like the Dermatologis and huge anxiety attacks.
On happier news I learned that I actually had been friends with the person who knows me best for eight years.Eight years!!! We sort of celebrated the discovery hanging out for almost 6 1/2 hours.heh
It still amazes me how people love each other despite many things.The logical side of my mind is fascinated by how people love you even after knowing how nasty can you be.
When I was little I thought that if you screwed up,it was forever.Then a girl came to me and showed me otherwise.I realized in 4th grade(late I know) that people were capable of trusting and I learned on my senior years that many people really cared about me.
At the beginning of my senior year I told a psychology teacher that I regretted almst my whole life.With time,I've come to realize that It wasn't as bad as I thought.And hpefully with time I'll appreciate the old chapters of my life better instead of regarding them as completely awful.yay!!
II Lets move on to actual news.I've been making icons like crazy lately and I've been really inspired.I've also been doing lots of other fun things like watching renting shows on Crime Scene Investigation,talking with Dany and Leetje( :D),drawing,writing and the most peaceful of all..sleeping!
As for today,I looks dark as though it will rain soon.But it han't already.I love rain.That's why I watched The Day after Tomorrow twice!Lots of water.I love H2O :D
So...I will plug a site about it http://water.deep-river.net (Aqueous Transmission).It like a fansite with lots of infor on our precious colorless gem.So go visit it!It looks pretty!
*waves 'Water Rocks' flag*
Oh and a random quote before I go to Neverland(fun!!)
"Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death." Anais Nin
PS - My default icon(made by Blanche) features one of my movie OTP's (yes I have more than one :P),Sophie and Julien from the movie Jeux D'enfants(US title:Love me If You Dare).It might be a crazy movie at times but it has so much beauty in it.
The best part was that the actors portrayed them so brilliantly the characters turned out to have an amazing chemistry and truly looked in love with one another.
Before I go,I ask for forgiveness when it comes to my grammar.Things will get better someday.
For now I need a random musings beta,an original fiction beta and a fanfic beta.Anyone up for it?
Im not that bad and I can draw a little and make icons for you.The latter is for a limited time because my muse tends to run off. ;)
Im hoping that things stay fun for a long time. :D
Take care!!
Next year I won't have to go up and down the stairs for each class nor I will encounter creepy drawings on the floors.I won't meet my friends first thing in the morning to talk about random things.The teacher will not be paranoid about people sitting on her chair,Viviana won't have to express her desire to go and all that free time we used to have in some classes will disapear.
Because that was one chapter of my life that's closed.A new one will open on August.
This chapter will have special appearances by my friends in it but they won't be recurring.The phone will be my friend ,the email will be too and I will learn to love/hate college.Because honestly,we always have love/hate relationships with the school ect we go to.Its what maks life fun.
Graduation Day was inbelievable.Probably because everyone looked so pretty and so grown-up.Yesterday they were playing with toys and talking about pop bands.No its all about cars,licenses,college.The fun is still ith them though but they are so different.I wish I could have gonne to some and hugged them goodbye.I don't feel like I said goodbye to everyone I cared about.Maybe they'll forget about the tiny girl(as Robert ued o tell me) who was quiet (History teacher),wanted to learn languages and help everyone with em(Vivi),the girl who gave random trivia(Annie) and that no one could figure out(Cory).
And maybe that's a really good thing because in a few years,I'll be different.Maybe even better than I was back then.
This summer has helped me get back to normal.Because last year I really lost control.I don't know if it was that it was the senior year fact,the fact that I as scared of being alone,the fact that I wouldn't help myself because of issues Ive had.The thing was that I got lost and I mean really.
I learned last year that when you feel bad ,if you feel that way long enough your body will get sick with you.And that means lots of prescriptions,bloodtests,visits to quiet doctors like the Dermatologis and huge anxiety attacks.
On happier news I learned that I actually had been friends with the person who knows me best for eight years.Eight years!!! We sort of celebrated the discovery hanging out for almost 6 1/2 hours.heh
It still amazes me how people love each other despite many things.The logical side of my mind is fascinated by how people love you even after knowing how nasty can you be.
When I was little I thought that if you screwed up,it was forever.Then a girl came to me and showed me otherwise.I realized in 4th grade(late I know) that people were capable of trusting and I learned on my senior years that many people really cared about me.
At the beginning of my senior year I told a psychology teacher that I regretted almst my whole life.With time,I've come to realize that It wasn't as bad as I thought.And hpefully with time I'll appreciate the old chapters of my life better instead of regarding them as completely awful.yay!!
II Lets move on to actual news.I've been making icons like crazy lately and I've been really inspired.I've also been doing lots of other fun things like watching renting shows on Crime Scene Investigation,talking with Dany and Leetje( :D),drawing,writing and the most peaceful of all..sleeping!
As for today,I looks dark as though it will rain soon.But it han't already.I love rain.That's why I watched The Day after Tomorrow twice!Lots of water.I love H2O :D
So...I will plug a site about it http://water.deep-river.net (Aqueous Transmission).It like a fansite with lots of infor on our precious colorless gem.So go visit it!It looks pretty!
*waves 'Water Rocks' flag*
Oh and a random quote before I go to Neverland(fun!!)
"Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death." Anais Nin
PS - My default icon(made by Blanche) features one of my movie OTP's (yes I have more than one :P),Sophie and Julien from the movie Jeux D'enfants(US title:Love me If You Dare).It might be a crazy movie at times but it has so much beauty in it.
The best part was that the actors portrayed them so brilliantly the characters turned out to have an amazing chemistry and truly looked in love with one another.
Before I go,I ask for forgiveness when it comes to my grammar.Things will get better someday.
For now I need a random musings beta,an original fiction beta and a fanfic beta.Anyone up for it?
Im not that bad and I can draw a little and make icons for you.The latter is for a limited time because my muse tends to run off. ;)
Im hoping that things stay fun for a long time. :D
Take care!!