Nov 27, 2006 23:25
How would you describe yourself to others? Happy? Pleasant?
When life gives me lemons, I make lemonade!
In an interview with The New Yorker:
NY: So Erica, tell us a little about yourself.
EH: Well, my life is great all the time. And I think I'm pretty cool. Everything is going the way I want it.
Not. If I did use that to describe myself, it would probably be because I have a veiled hatred for myself or situation, or in reality, my life is stale but I don't want anyone to know about it.
Truthfully, my life is in serious limbo right now. I can't stand where I am. And if I stay on this track, I fear I won't stand who I will become.
And that's okay. It's okay to be unsatisfied and restless when you're 20, because you are still, for all intents and purposes, in the stages of adolescence. At this age, we get bored easily. Just like children, we want to explore, indulge our curiosities, etc.
Right now, my peers are typically at a stage in life where they are questioning what to do with themselves. To go to grad school or not? Questions even as basic as "is college even right for me?" cross our minds. Faced with these big life decisions at such a young age, our fight or flight instinct kicks in for some reason, and a lot of us want to hop on a flight right out of the country. And why don't we? Why do we feel discouraged from taking time off and finding that passion for life, or that passion for learning that higher education unwillingly drains of you?
Too scared to face our parents?
Too scared to go out into the world alone? Fear of failure?
I think it's a combination of those things. But we should also fear stagnation.
If we don't explore now, when will we?