Cry the rivers to drown the lakes and flood the world this Christmas day.
I can't quite pick out the words because it still hurts.
But I loved you then like I love you now and nothing could possibly change that. Not your words, your actions, nothing. Although you have reached some extremities, I am here to stay. Well, I was and most likely would've, given half the chance. But the ones who pretend not to dwell in the past, live it and that is where I lost you. Again.
Again? Yes, again.
Who saw it coming? I did.
Did you run? No, I did not.
Why? Because he asked me to trust him and I trusted him blindly.
You said only time would tell but things have a funny way of working out and you have a funny way of discarding me from your life in less than 15 minutes. And as soon as you came in, I knew. But I never made a scene.
Nothing is as real as being invisible to the only eyes you'd even care about being candy for. Everyone could see except for you. Or was it that you could see but didn't care? I don't even think dying would have caught a mere split second of your attention because she was all you could see. Desperate, I tried to hide you, to speak of things i'll never know. Alone we were and all you could do was reach for the door, I knew. Left with such despair, things only heartbreak could think flooded my every thought.
I poured my heart out that night for neglect.
Now you can't even hear me. Maybe you just choose not to. Invisible, dead whatever I may be to you is most definitely not deserved because you know I tried. I tried so hard.
Regardless, you know that i'll still wait for your call. A call that may possibly never come because you're like that. I'll still wait to see your face and kiss your lips. Wait to hold you. Wait for you to so sweetly caress my face and run your finger tips along the small of my back... such memories only make me miss you more.
A letter sent me by your house last night. It was written so beautifully, inspiration had a right to know. But the ring of a doorbell sent you away and I couldn't wait, I had to go. I couldn't go. Sitting there cold and alone I thought of all your once said words wondering what you would do. Ended up leaving with your letter scrunched up in a closed fist. Drove away with tears in my eyes, swerving on the road. And all of this should you already know.
All of me was for you and you don't want me, so what is a girl to do?
Smile and go on with her life.