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Drinking by yourself is totally sweet.
I'm tired of Michigan, but at the same time I love it. I hear stories and see pictures from friends that have gone around the world doing exciting things and I'm here stuck in Grand Rapids, and the most exciting thing I've done is sleep in past 6am.
I feel like I'm in a downward spiral. But at least I haven't smoked in almost two months. Tonight is the kind of night I would have smoked almost a pack because the night was so fucked, but I didn't. And I didn't burn either. So I guess that's good.
I guess I just feel like I have nothing to show for my life when people I graduated with are already into their careers and awesome lives and things. And I chose to be "just" a teacher, which isn't exactly a profession that can take me around the world, but one that I feel I am awesome at and will really make a difference.
Whatever, I'm drunk and rambling and depressed. I feel like I need my meds again.
I'm tired of Michigan, but at the same time I love it. I hear stories and see pictures from friends that have gone around the world doing exciting things and I'm here stuck in Grand Rapids, and the most exciting thing I've done is sleep in past 6am.
I feel like I'm in a downward spiral. But at least I haven't smoked in almost two months. Tonight is the kind of night I would have smoked almost a pack because the night was so fucked, but I didn't. And I didn't burn either. So I guess that's good.
I guess I just feel like I have nothing to show for my life when people I graduated with are already into their careers and awesome lives and things. And I chose to be "just" a teacher, which isn't exactly a profession that can take me around the world, but one that I feel I am awesome at and will really make a difference.
Whatever, I'm drunk and rambling and depressed. I feel like I need my meds again.