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[yourwastedlife]

ahh not gonna sleep. i hate reading shit with no firm direction to it and assuming the worst. i hate not being able to sleep. i cant be comfortable in any situation anymore. im never content with shit. fuck. i feel akward all the time now. thats the word. akward. everywhere. everyone im around. kind of sucks. i kind of Hate it. hate

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[lahermite]

Give yourself time, Baby. I don't mean that condescendingly. Just give yourself time. You're incredibly smart and sensitive and full of angsty teenage hormones. Be patient. They will settle down and then things will become clearer. Try to Be exactly where you are. You can't be anywhere else, but you seem to be chasing that. It's not uncommon. I've spent my whole life chasing a different life. Anywhere but here. But you *are* here, so just Be here.

You should come hang at mine sometime. I can feed you but can't give you cigarettes or beer. And won't! But I can also give you lots of cool books to read and lots of freaky spiritual advice hehe.

I hope things turn out okay for your mum. I will keep her in healthy pregnancy and delivery vibes.

[peteydistortion]

You know you're always welcome to come hang for a few days in this mental asylum I live in. I miss ya, bro.

[ohuzaru]

i can really relate to you. but you really do need time, and things get better here and there. i really do hope things get better for you and i hope your mom's pregnancy turns out well. if you ever need any money, i'll lend you some. or if you need any books or movies to watch or someone to talk to. it's been awhile but i doubt it would be awkward, or at least i hope not. let me know what you're doing this weekend, or the next or the next. i'm always up for hanging out.

[krusterra]

<3

[au_le_printemps]

oh matt how i wish i had a teleporter because then id be there in a second you were my only good friend when i was home and i didnt even get to see you before i left, i think about you constantly and when i do things you are on my mind as "spaz would really love this right now, or spaz would be so happy to see this or be here or there" i want to steal you away and open your eyes in a completely different way then they are now, not because your eyes are open in a bad way but just not fully aware or maybe too aware? ethier or is kind of bad, life is funny the way things work its not at all nice in any sense its hard and its mean and it throws things at you as obstacles that you ethier overcome or dont and its not good or not bad its just tests and not tests that you can fail just that you learn from and get stronger wether you win or lose