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gota friend whos on one side of a story that i have friends ive talked to about it who are on both sides of it. fuck. fuck fuck. frustration. dcf bastards. he loves his fucking child. fuck. he sounds like my father used to. im gladi can let him understand (hopefully) how elijah is going to feel. jesus. why??!? why would people do this?! jesus. ridiculous. especially her. i dont really know her. but why? hes not a bad person. albeit he is drunk usually. albeit when hes not and when he is he loves him non the less. making him pay to see his child? and you care about his well being?!?! no sense to me. no sense. I know children who cant talk well but its obvious they want to see their fucking father. when they have the chance why not allow it. when they have the chance. fucking losing it. fucking losing it. repetition. god damn. drunk albeit truthful. drunk albeit honest. i want to stay honest in this yet i dont. well this pisses me off. makes me sad as shit. lost on my way home today because i couldnt stop crying. god damn. cant. still. hes fucking dying. dying more and more every fucking day. everyone knows it. no one pays attention. god damn. he has one lung left. no one appreciates it. no one appreciates him. cant see elijah while he still can. wants to top himself. cant fucking top himself. fuck fuck. hope he doesnt. hope he doesnt. beutiful people with beutiful children. amazing. means more to me than alot of things. tried to find this other guy today. was going to kick the living shit out of him. was going to. he left beforehand. dissapointment. bastard. full of hate. im full of hate. im never violent unless with good reason and this was with good reason but i think im also searching for a release. fucking bastard. wanted to kick the shit out of him. still do even after realization. fucked up. have to leave. could type for too long, to simple. fuck it. good bye. going to sit and carry on.