eating applesauce with chopsicks...
let me tell you..i make things too difficult...
applesauce; somewhat of a liquid
chopsticks; minimal surface area
do you see some sort of problem here?
in fact, i do. Such small things paralell my
more significant problem areas right now
(which, by the way, i bring upon myself...)
kendall and i had a chat, and some of the conversation
consisted of me realizing my faults; flaws; imperfections.
It made me realize that i make my life
harder than it really has to be.
Schooling, feelings, home, friends, the Great Migration...
sigh...it makes me think about Bridget's theories
while philosophizing...
maybe when we die, we choose how hard we want our lives to be the next time,
like maybe we want to experience the hardships, sorrows, and scathing,
just to know; to empathize; to be that of a billiard table...or sometimes maybe we choose to live a simple life, where we can relax for while; a less brash chaser to follow the hardships of our prior lives...
well, maybe she didn't include the part about the billiards table...
but anyway...it really makes me think, in general. What am i going to do after high school? UW Manitowoc? College?
i simply don't know....
maybe there IS a "higher being"...and it's all a game to him/her/it...
like a mix of preferences, of difficulty levels and such...
and he has to piece everybody together; make them meet at certain points; connect the puzzle so each piece fits...comfortably to their shape, size, needs, requests...
or maybe we're the same throughout our many lives (if there are more than one...)
but he just alters how we think...each of us...our morals, quirks, mindset, levels of emotion felt...
and in this way, everyhing jsut happens by itself...sort of programing people, and then letting them go out and do what they're supposed to...according to their programming...
i just don't know...
that's what kendall and I decided....
the underlying concept is:
i. don't. know
applesauce; somewhat of a liquid
chopsticks; minimal surface area
do you see some sort of problem here?
in fact, i do. Such small things paralell my
more significant problem areas right now
(which, by the way, i bring upon myself...)
kendall and i had a chat, and some of the conversation
consisted of me realizing my faults; flaws; imperfections.
It made me realize that i make my life
harder than it really has to be.
Schooling, feelings, home, friends, the Great Migration...
sigh...it makes me think about Bridget's theories
while philosophizing...
maybe when we die, we choose how hard we want our lives to be the next time,
like maybe we want to experience the hardships, sorrows, and scathing,
just to know; to empathize; to be that of a billiard table...or sometimes maybe we choose to live a simple life, where we can relax for while; a less brash chaser to follow the hardships of our prior lives...
well, maybe she didn't include the part about the billiards table...
but anyway...it really makes me think, in general. What am i going to do after high school? UW Manitowoc? College?
i simply don't know....
maybe there IS a "higher being"...and it's all a game to him/her/it...
like a mix of preferences, of difficulty levels and such...
and he has to piece everybody together; make them meet at certain points; connect the puzzle so each piece fits...comfortably to their shape, size, needs, requests...
or maybe we're the same throughout our many lives (if there are more than one...)
but he just alters how we think...each of us...our morals, quirks, mindset, levels of emotion felt...
and in this way, everyhing jsut happens by itself...sort of programing people, and then letting them go out and do what they're supposed to...according to their programming...
i just don't know...
that's what kendall and I decided....
the underlying concept is:
i. don't. know