tonights not my night.
i washed my face with some soap from the big bathroom downstairs.....and now my face is bright red. : (
i freakout.?!??#BLOWUP.act stupid//////{]432$#@*i get bad days and then take my feelings out on someonme who doesnt ness. deserve it.////'{{{{even though they were still kind of.?'.;]]]]ill let it go.IDONTwant//to FREEEEEEAKOUTanymore!==+im cutting all my HURRRRR off&s00n.<>???^tonight i want to move.\\\\\\away from everyone.&im tired of drama~~~~~and im tired of stupid people.@3 im 15.im a WOMAN. i respect myself.AS A WOMAN. i am not really 15^^^^^\\my age is irrelivant to you.?????//////IM'{{&%^(0L..d\\\\\\\\\\enough.++++2FUCK. I...am{{|??\\\)))))00000000lD}}+++enough..ISAIDENOUGH..>>>4U^%#2 RESPECT!OOOOOOOHBUTTER...oh my how that rings a bell.>}}|"\\\would you like to sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-ooooow me??\\\\\Once Upon a time this girl fell in love..not for long..?///\++54%$#%$#but long enough to know the FEELING...long enough to get attached and disappointed. long enough to hurt....long enough to miss it.|=+++"if that was love.. i dont think i care for it" she said. and then she let him go..she got over HIM.\\\\\she moved on.she was happy. she had all she needed.and then..AGAIN.but.I.guess.thats.how.life.goes. \[]][and AGAIN she let.it.GO.she was INCONTROL.\\\\\\\but NOW this hurts..this uncontrolled feeling..that she worked so hard to deminish\\_+++i cant control my feelings..4u(*(( im not incontrol of myself any longer.:'"\\]{ I WANT TO BE incontrol. )))))) but i cant seem to grasp it.
i dont mean to impose....im not in love. i cant tell you exactly what im feeling\\\\7 $#@#2because. i dont know. i am LORIN. i HAVE control. I decide what i want who i want when i want it .AND I GET IT. but this time. its not working as well as it should. i dont know where i stand. i am a woman.i am incontrol.....no...im not.