Feb 17, 2006 19:45
yeah so this is my first entry here .. and it's not gonna be a happy one so if you don't wanna hear it, i'm telling you to X out now .. cause i just need somewhere to vent
so the past week or so hasn't been well at all. i just thank god for drama cause it's really the only place where i'm truly enjoying what i'm doing
lately i have been soo stressed about everything- i haven't even started my big science project and it's due the day we come back .. so yeah i have a feeling it wont even be a stress-free week off. i have no free time whatsoever anymore because of drama but there's no way i would give it up
i don't even understand myself anymore .. i've been feeling so down on myself for the longest time, and i'm still trying to sort it out. i feel like there's so much weight on my shoulders, but i don't know where the weight is coming from .. i really hope i can find why i'm so depressed out soon, cause i'm sick of attempting to pretend like nothing's wrong
i'm not looking forward to vacation cause i know when i have nothing to do, i'm just gonna have more time to think about stuff and i don't wanna .. so if anyone wants to do anything with me, tell me please i don't want to be stuck alone ..
alright well that's it for now .. i had to get that all off my head <3