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so, i haven't slept in 2 days.
seriously.
i've had my little 1hr 1/2 naps here and there, but i haven't had a goodnight's sleep. idk i guess there's been too much on my mind.
i want to talk to someone. or more like i need to. but i have this huge fear of driving people away that i'd almost rather struggle through it & keep this all to myself than to just let it out. it's one of those things where i need to tell someone something, but i'm so afraid of a bad answer or the truth, you know? and if the truth is bad, will everything be ok afterwards, or will it lead to destruction of something i really cherish? i don't know what to make of it. i'm going to gain up every ounce of courage i have left in me & let it all out really soon. cause it's really not fair to let this bottle up inside of me & have me suffer through this. okay, maybe suffer's too brutal of a word. struggle's more like it.
okay so today was robb's going away party, and i had a good time. i really enjoyed my last few hours with him till november. but of course when the time came to leave, guess what i did? i cried. shocking i know, since im such a concrete wall with emotions (haha robb). but seriously, i've looked up to him pretty much since the day i met him, and he's been such a huge inspiration for me. i'm so afraid of loosing touch with him, but i'm sure that's not going to happen.
goodnight everyone. ♥
seriously.
i've had my little 1hr 1/2 naps here and there, but i haven't had a goodnight's sleep. idk i guess there's been too much on my mind.
i want to talk to someone. or more like i need to. but i have this huge fear of driving people away that i'd almost rather struggle through it & keep this all to myself than to just let it out. it's one of those things where i need to tell someone something, but i'm so afraid of a bad answer or the truth, you know? and if the truth is bad, will everything be ok afterwards, or will it lead to destruction of something i really cherish? i don't know what to make of it. i'm going to gain up every ounce of courage i have left in me & let it all out really soon. cause it's really not fair to let this bottle up inside of me & have me suffer through this. okay, maybe suffer's too brutal of a word. struggle's more like it.
okay so today was robb's going away party, and i had a good time. i really enjoyed my last few hours with him till november. but of course when the time came to leave, guess what i did? i cried. shocking i know, since im such a concrete wall with emotions (haha robb). but seriously, i've looked up to him pretty much since the day i met him, and he's been such a huge inspiration for me. i'm so afraid of loosing touch with him, but i'm sure that's not going to happen.
goodnight everyone. ♥