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i'm fucking wasted... but for some reason i have backspaced and respelled about 6 words so far. maybe i just want to spell things right when i'm this gone. fuck. who knows? 12 respells. uhm. i just read your whole fucking journal. i'm staying with my uncle in san antonio. still on tour. i want to come home, but then again i have no home now. home is with you. amanda. i need you. if you need this so much, you are turning your back on me. i can't come back to you if we split. i can't. you know this, but for some reason... (23 mispelled words. make that 24. i mispelled "words." 25. how can you spell a number wrong? what an idiot. 26.) anyways... im talking about it. (yeah. should add perenthesis there... and here.) yeah. i just want you torealize that i wouldn't be happy without you. and if you figure out that you are happy without me, fine. go have your fucking life. leave your best friend behind. you are my best friend. my love. leave me behind. fucking go for it. i just want to be with you and if my band is hurting us then fuck off. if not... i'll see you when i come home. i'm bringing you with me on tour. i should have never called that off. i'll never leave you behind again. (spelled "again" wrong.) anyways. check your messages. i'm giving you directions online since everyone's phones are out of battery. i love you. i miss you. and i hope everything turns out good. better than before would be nice, but the same would be good. i love you so fucking much. i wish you would come to san antonio right now, but i know monkey wrench is a part of you. and im glad you are doing it. you're my dream girl and that will never fade. if this love has not failled... it will never. stick with lee. i'm the shit.