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September 22, 2004
"i'm losing sleep over this. don't think i've ever felt this guilty. i am an asshole. i can't deny that. i had the best intentions, but just kind of got sidetracked somewhere along the way. when you walked into my store you were so fucking georgous, i was too dumbstruck to think to tell you then. i just kind of assumed we'd hang out a couple times, you'd see that i wasn't what you thought i was and bail. when that didn't happen and i realized exactly what was going on i didn't want to tell you because, well, damn... i just really liked you. i knew that if you found out you'd take off and that would be the end of that. but you were so fucking pretty and so fucking weird, i didn't want you to take off. in hindsight, yes, it was a pretty selfish and stupid thing to do. you shouldn't have found out like that. it was fucked up and shitty and i'm sorry. when i said i was a bad person. this is what i ment. things are not quite as simple as maddie mad them out to be, if you'd like know what was going on you know where to find me. if you'd like to never see me again, well i can respect that too. but i just thought you deserved an explaination, even if it is a disgusting one. at least its honest. i'm sorry."
August 31, 2004
For the past 2 weeks i have had the biggest crush that i have ever had. it's so bad that i'm afraid to talk to her... or even get close to her. she works at the mall. so everyday i go up there and walk past where she works. she's never there. it's been maybe about nine days since i last saw her. and every single day... i look for her and i can't find her. i'm so pathetic that i just drive to random places hoping she'll be there and i'll actually have my chance to talk to her. i walk through that boring mall every fucking day. i'm pathetic. i need to find a job, but the only thing that keeps me busy is trying to find her... and smoking about 3 packs a day. God damnit.
Although it hurts so much to read... i'm still so in love with you.
September 22, 2004
"i'm losing sleep over this. don't think i've ever felt this guilty. i am an asshole. i can't deny that. i had the best intentions, but just kind of got sidetracked somewhere along the way. when you walked into my store you were so fucking georgous, i was too dumbstruck to think to tell you then. i just kind of assumed we'd hang out a couple times, you'd see that i wasn't what you thought i was and bail. when that didn't happen and i realized exactly what was going on i didn't want to tell you because, well, damn... i just really liked you. i knew that if you found out you'd take off and that would be the end of that. but you were so fucking pretty and so fucking weird, i didn't want you to take off. in hindsight, yes, it was a pretty selfish and stupid thing to do. you shouldn't have found out like that. it was fucked up and shitty and i'm sorry. when i said i was a bad person. this is what i ment. things are not quite as simple as maddie mad them out to be, if you'd like know what was going on you know where to find me. if you'd like to never see me again, well i can respect that too. but i just thought you deserved an explaination, even if it is a disgusting one. at least its honest. i'm sorry."
August 31, 2004
For the past 2 weeks i have had the biggest crush that i have ever had. it's so bad that i'm afraid to talk to her... or even get close to her. she works at the mall. so everyday i go up there and walk past where she works. she's never there. it's been maybe about nine days since i last saw her. and every single day... i look for her and i can't find her. i'm so pathetic that i just drive to random places hoping she'll be there and i'll actually have my chance to talk to her. i walk through that boring mall every fucking day. i'm pathetic. i need to find a job, but the only thing that keeps me busy is trying to find her... and smoking about 3 packs a day. God damnit.
Although it hurts so much to read... i'm still so in love with you.