endings
ok, well, I know I haven't written in a while, but thats becaue I didn't feel like it/I was too lazy & tired. Summer is almost over and I feel like I just let time pass me by. I did nothing productive and I saw my friends twice. that really sucks a lot. I worked and I worked and I let time pass me by. I can't wait to leave for school but I'm also very nervous and concerned about living in the city. I've been to new york a few times, but I feel like this is going to be way different and overwhelming. It should be fun and exciting, but I just hope that I don't screw things up by being stupid or whatever. I've been in a genral sad mood lately. It doesn't seem to show that much, which is good, but I just feel that deep down, something is wrong. I feel like I could just cry for days. I also kind of feel like I'm missing out on things that everyone is doing.. I'm not sure what, but feel like because Im so far away, no one cares anymore. This is why both times I saw my friends, I made the effort. no one came to visit me. which sucked. This is part of the reason I didn't write for most of the summer. Because I knew that it would come out like this. Like I'm some sort of selfish person. I'm not, I swear. I just feel really down. Not the I'm-Going-To-Kill-Myself kind of down, but the kind that could be fixed with some sort of pick me up.
I guess I'll start talking about camp, since that was a little more up beat. I really enjoyed the job, except for the kids.. haha, no, I'm kidding. It was fun, but a little annoying. I'm pretty sure I'm not going back there next summer, partly because of the over-extreme jewish-ness, but also because of the disorganized, nonprofessional nature. The Senior Staff was the worst and did nothing to help out or keep the peace this summer, and they just made things worse. BUT, I liked being with the kid and people my age and stuff. I wish I had a staff that wanted to be with the kids, but that was just another challange. I had some real space cadet girls in my group, and some really affectionate ones. And two that didn't talk at all. And one that ate averything... even off the floor. But, it was still good. We saw a show at monmouth U. and then we saw a kick ass puppet show of aladdin and the magic ring. I was Color War General, and we won. We had the camp carnival and we ate sno cones and cotton candy. I met some awesome people and I hope that I can stay in touch with.. especially because they all live in brooklyn. I only got sick once, except now I have a gross ulcer on my tounge. not bad. I didn't get lice, I didn't get the gross rash thing that was going around, and all in all, that made it good for me. I did lose my temper a couple of times- mostly on the bus, but thats because I had one of the mosr rude, crass kids on the planet. although, he may have been one of my favorites. By the by, there was a really cute kid in the Kindergarten boys group, his name is Freddy, and like, he is going to grow up to be a heartthrob. expecially if he stays humble and stuff. SO CUTE. I can't say that my girls werent cute. One of which came in with her two front teeth missing and is leaving tomorrow with no sign of them coming in at all... and another one who reminds me of an old lady that you just want to hug. and one with the prettiest eyes and smile, she could be a child star...except for her laugh, which is sort of Donkey-esque. I had a bully and the girl she picked on, a girl with connections all over the camp, and a couple more that were just random. It was a pretty cool summer, but I missed the beach. a lot. I hated walking into a classroom when thesun was blazing and the sky was empty.
Speaking of the beach, I realized that the beach taggers in Ocean Grove have it WAY eaiser then ocean city taggers. They sit in chairs with umbrellas and although the math is a little more complex because the prices are higher, they do nothing compaired to what we had to. Their supervisors ride aound in golf carts, they on't have to wear a pouch, and, from all the times I've been on the beach, they don't sweep. they just stand stairs. wtf. that stinks. I 'm finished with that now and would like to talk about books. I've read a bunch of good ones this summer. >my Sisters Keeper >The Memory Keepers Daughter >The Amazing Adventures of Caviler and Clay > Water For Elephants >The Perks of Beig A Wallflower >Dorian Gray >Ferinheight 451 and I have yet to read A Spot of Bother (by the author of Curious Incident o the Dog in the Nighttime) oh, and also harry potterand the deathly hallows...of which I laughed, I cried, I got very fustrated, and then, good triumphed over evil and the end. It was an awesome book and although I was upset by all the deaths, I watchedthe dateline interview with JK and she explains A LOT. Like the reason she killed Lupin and Tonks and the one character that gets a reprive and the fact that ted tonks is kissing Bill and Fleur's daughter in the epilogue. And how she never intended to kill Hagrid. and things like that. It was a great ending. and I LOVED THAT PERCY CAME BACKKK! partially because I love percy a lot. and even when people said that he was evil now and that he hated the weasleys, I still loved him. <3 ah loyality. And On the HP topic, Movie 5 was pretty sweet as well. It was missing my favorite parts, such as Dobby (and ew, was pissed when he got killed.. senseless killing of house elves), and Lockhart, and when Harry and cho kiss on VDay and the Centar becoming the Divination professor... yeah. all that. Also HP related, I made Ray start reading the books he's on #2.. he says he likes it, so, we'll see.
To finish things off, I'd like to say that I'm thinking of a new tattoo for before school starts. I was hoping for a jewish star, but everyone I've talked to said that it would be kind of Holocaust-y. I don't know. I could get a Chai (not the tea, the jewish term.. kthanks) but everyone thinks it looks like a Pi symbol. wich is not what I want. so,I don't know yet. It would be nice, but I just don't know.
ok, the end. long enough?