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[yoursinginlover]

so we had a couple days off from classes due to presidents day...

and a lot of my friends went home...

i wanted to go home...

but my parents were supposed to come up...

they didn't because of a plumbing problem in my grandma's house...

so it was boring here....

and who am i kidding? i wouldve been bored at home anyway...

i threw a little party and i was offered weed... and neither of those things seemed to be exciting (i didnt try the weed)....

maybe im just boring...

i never thought of myself that way...

but maybe i am...

id say that if certain people were here for the weekend, it would be more exciting..

but it will still be boring even if they werent there...

i just love when classes are happening just because i have stuff to do and people are around....

and i dont like being alone because all i do is sit around and think while i watch tv or use the computer...

and thinking can be a dangerous thing..

i start to analyze my past and my present... and occasionally my future...

i dont like to reflect on my past because its in the past and i don't regret anything because there is nothing i can do about it...

i feel like who i was in the past is so much different from who i am now...

but in reality, im probably still the same...

ive always followed others and i still can't handle negative criticism...

oh yeah and this college experience has helped me to discover that I'm selfish.. i do a lot of things for my own benefit even when i shouldn't...

god im a bitch...

see i told you what happens when i think...

thinking is a dangerous thing...