lately i started to notice or to realize something...
i am losing everything i had once had. my friends, my life, my dog, everything. its sucks. no one talks to me any more. i though when i moved i wouldn't lose everyone. that some people would still im me or call me. thats why i wouldn't let my dad change his cell phone number. so that my friends could call me on the weekends. but whats the point now. no one talks to me. no one cares any more. i am just kinda stuck here. with nothing at all. no life, no friends, no dog, no parents, nothing. i wish my "friends" would at least call or im me just to at least say hi just to let me know i still have friends. i want to go back to ohio for a couple of days during winter break. but i don't know now. i am not sure i have anything to go back to. or any one. i don't even know where i'd stay or anything. i miss everyone and everything so much. i miss ohio more than anyone could imagine. but it doesn't seem like anyone feels the same about me. everyone moved on and forgot. but i can't. i never will. i have too much stuff to remind me what i regret leaving. i still watch the movie of my surprise going away party. as scary and desturbing that movie is sometimes i still watch it because i miss everyone. i have picture all over my room of different events with everyone. i guess no matter how much i miss it, it wont miss me back. i guess it is true... once you leave you can't go back.