it's the sun that burns, it's the wheel that turns, it's the way we sing that makes 'em dream.
for the second day in a row i have to apologize. and i truly am sorry about tonight. so many things were just so amiss tonight. and as much as i wanted tonight to be amazing, it was hard. my great aunt peggy died today. and everything felt so empty. yes, i was sad about tonight. but i was also so angry. so angry that i let myself dig a hole and jump in and try to pull down the people i care about so much. it's not what i intended.
i won't have it next year. that feeling of perfection when i look around and realize i have a family of sixty-odd people. and these are the people i owe so much more than the world to. steve, someday i'll try to tell you myself how much i really do owe you. i've been thinking about it lately, and my debt to you is immense. not only dragging me off the field but up the stairs of old main and back down again during fifth hour, plus a stop for a happy meal.
the four of you. you know which four. i will never find any guys as amazing as you all.
thank you, to everyone who gave me at least one hug tonight. yes, there was one hug i sorely missed. (and stop telling yourself as you're reading this that i am not talking about you. i am talking about you. start believing me!) i always told myself i would not let myself get so worked up at my last concert, and that i would never miss high school. and i still never will. but i will miss the people more than anything in the world.
yes becca. this is another sentimental post. but don't worry. i have two new bruises to prove that all my emo tendencies were removed last night. thank you, to the one person who made me realize my own unadmitted fear. you made me smile more than just on my face. you made me smile in my heart. i went to your house in a lonely turbulence and left calm. i am okay now. no more tears until graduation. unless tyler decides to abuse me at work again. =]
no wonder you need a shot of whiskey to sweeten me up!
i won't have it next year. that feeling of perfection when i look around and realize i have a family of sixty-odd people. and these are the people i owe so much more than the world to. steve, someday i'll try to tell you myself how much i really do owe you. i've been thinking about it lately, and my debt to you is immense. not only dragging me off the field but up the stairs of old main and back down again during fifth hour, plus a stop for a happy meal.
the four of you. you know which four. i will never find any guys as amazing as you all.
thank you, to everyone who gave me at least one hug tonight. yes, there was one hug i sorely missed. (and stop telling yourself as you're reading this that i am not talking about you. i am talking about you. start believing me!) i always told myself i would not let myself get so worked up at my last concert, and that i would never miss high school. and i still never will. but i will miss the people more than anything in the world.
yes becca. this is another sentimental post. but don't worry. i have two new bruises to prove that all my emo tendencies were removed last night. thank you, to the one person who made me realize my own unadmitted fear. you made me smile more than just on my face. you made me smile in my heart. i went to your house in a lonely turbulence and left calm. i am okay now. no more tears until graduation. unless tyler decides to abuse me at work again. =]
no wonder you need a shot of whiskey to sweeten me up!