narcissism and therapy and recovery

[yourshade]

For the first half of this year, I had a very tumultuous, on-agan-off-again relationship with this guy. It was intense. It ended in early June, and then we made a brief try at reconciliation last month. Turns out he actually is as much of a narcissist as I suspected the first time we had a row back in February. I've heard and read of these kinds of toxic relationships but never thought I'd find myself in one. He just keeps drawing me back in and making me feel like I need him to be okay. The truth is that he doesn't give me the respect I deserve and has a knack for making everything look like my fault when I inevitably snap and call him out. We haven't spoken in over a week and I'm still not eager to communicate with him. I think he was getting in the way of my being able to meet other people. Probably vice-versa as well.

I spoke briefly with my new therapist this morning. Good vibes. We'll see.