paint tomorrow blue
david came home last night. i hung out with the summer cat crew, minus a few people. ok ok so it was only david, pascal and me. i also hung out with some non-cat crew people. i ended up smoking way too much and that didn't mix well with the pills i took in the morning. threw up twice. but i felt all skinny afterwards. oh, man that's bad. i shouldn't have liked that, but i did.
thanksgiving dinner with dad tonight. at four???????? i don't get that. i know thanksgiving dinner's supposed to be early, but come on. who's hungry in the godamn middle of the afternoon? not me. i'll be having a peanut butter (no jelly) sandwhich. great thanksgiving.
i miss johnny. we're starting the countdown over. 8 days. it's nice not having to start the countdown from 14 anymore. come back to me.
my wrists look good. no one will understand that besides olivia, but i can say it anyway. they're lookin fucking sexy today. cause i threw up everything in my stomach and now i can see the veins going all the way up my arm. i love pretending to be a heroin addict. oh man, getting blood drawn. i always feel so hard core walking outta that place with track marks up and down my arms. that's the upside to getting blood drawn.
i miss sophie. she has mono. she says i can go see her but we can't make out. shit. no more smoking for that girl. mouth's too sensitive. she'll get cancer in a heartbeat. but her heartbeats usually a lot faster than most because we're always stoned. so she'd get cancer in like three or four sophie heartbeats. normal heartbeats though....shit. only one.
i'm in the weirdest mood ever. it's normal.
lane
thanksgiving dinner with dad tonight. at four???????? i don't get that. i know thanksgiving dinner's supposed to be early, but come on. who's hungry in the godamn middle of the afternoon? not me. i'll be having a peanut butter (no jelly) sandwhich. great thanksgiving.
i miss johnny. we're starting the countdown over. 8 days. it's nice not having to start the countdown from 14 anymore. come back to me.
my wrists look good. no one will understand that besides olivia, but i can say it anyway. they're lookin fucking sexy today. cause i threw up everything in my stomach and now i can see the veins going all the way up my arm. i love pretending to be a heroin addict. oh man, getting blood drawn. i always feel so hard core walking outta that place with track marks up and down my arms. that's the upside to getting blood drawn.
i miss sophie. she has mono. she says i can go see her but we can't make out. shit. no more smoking for that girl. mouth's too sensitive. she'll get cancer in a heartbeat. but her heartbeats usually a lot faster than most because we're always stoned. so she'd get cancer in like three or four sophie heartbeats. normal heartbeats though....shit. only one.
i'm in the weirdest mood ever. it's normal.
lane