Problems
I don't know what to do. Me and Joe were argueing, I'm not going to say about what cause it's personal, and I'm worried. I think he's going to break up with me. I really feel like he doesn't want to be with me, he just stays with me cause he doesn't want to hurt me. Today he told me he wants to take a break, but then I got all upset and he changed his mind. I don't think he really changed his mind, he just felt bad because I was crying. I'm so scared I'm going to lose him. That can't happen. It won't happen. We love each other. We're just having some problems.. I'll keep telling myself that, and maybe I'll start believing it. I got in the bath tub and layed in there for a while after me and Joe got off the phone. That made it better. It made me relax. I'm just really worried. I don't want him to break up with me. I can't wait until he gets home from work tomorrow and calls me. Maybe we will be happy tomorrow. I have been very happy with him for a long time, and I thought he was happy too. But, I guess not. He says he loves me, but it's just hard to believe now. He said something that he can never take back. He tried to stop the arguement by saying forget about it. But I couldn't stop crying. I can't just forget about what he said to me. I'll try to be happy and not say anything about it to him anymore so we don't argue. I just want us to be happy. I really needed somebody to talk to about everything, but you know what I realized? I am so lonely. Since me and Joe got together I haven't really bothered with my friends. Maybe that's why they don't talk to me anymore. I always said nobody talks to me anymore, but I think it's my own fault. The only person I think about anymore is Joe and I've been ignoring everybody else. Before when I use to have problems I always had a lot of people to call and talk to, but I couldn't think of one person tonight. I need to start talking to everybody again. Sorry everybody if I haven't been paying attention to you lately.