Dec 15, 2004 16:40
Havent updated in a while... Things are bad! Ive just been in a bad mood lately! Its like i hate everything n everyone! My dad wants to see me but i dont know! Hes supposedly in rehab and off drugs but thats happened like 3 times already! He goes right back to it and i can take it! I go like 6 monnths without seeing him and i only see him like once for like a few hours, and wen i try to talk to him n tell him im worried about him he laughs n thinks its all funny! Wen i cry he gets mad, i cant take it! Amy says i should go see him so i wont regret anything if he dies! I mean I do wanna see him cause i want him to know that i love him n i miss him but i dont cause if i get close again then he dies, it will kill me! He already died once and they saved him, i dont want that happening again! He wasnt even there wen i went into the hospital n almost died! I dont know why he does this! But anyways... Single again :-( I found someone i really liked but we broke up! I dont really care nemore i give up! I hate life, i hate myself, i hate everything!! This Friday we have a party at Mrs. Mos house for CHRISTmas and then all of us girls are gonna go shopping on Saturday! I cant wait, thats wen i have the most fun is wen im with all my church friends! They make me happy! Thanks guys!! Well i gotta get ready for church so talk to yall laterz!!
<3 Susan!!
Amy, I am and always will be here for you! I Love You Lots n Lots!! Dont let anybody get in our way n ruin nething! You know you can talk to me about nething n i will listen even if i dont wanna! Love ya lil sis!!