this goes out to you
I have all these new feeling inside of me right now that i have never had before i dont like any of them and i wish that they would leave me but i guess things just dont happen like that i have had a best friend of my since before i knew how to tie my shoes but truth be told i got some new friends and i feel like i alomst left her behind but i know i did not do it to make her feel upset or angry towards me i hate to see any of my friends upset but when it comes to you katie i get even more upset i dont know if you will ever read this or really truly understand me and i am ok with that but your gonna laugh at me for this but when i get in the shower and think about things half of the time i end up thinking about you and how everyday i feel like our friendship is dead and i could not hate anything more than the feeling that i have in me i know friendships come and go but your friendship is one i want to hold onto and keep until the day i die and i am not even kidding you right now i found this saying one time " if you live to be a 100 years old i want to live to be 100 minus one day cuz i dont want to spend a day without you" this is so true for us i was never one to post my true feeling on the internet but this time i want the whole world to know that i treated our friendship like crap and i hate it you are an amazing person and you keep me on track if theres one thing that i like about you most is you tell me what i need to hear not what i want to or like to hear but what i need to hear to keep me on the right path and i would not trade that for the world i want you to know that is something that i am going to be working on for a very long time and i dont want you to give up on me just yet i miss our saturday movie nights and i long phone chats i would not trade you or anything about you for the world hunny i love you so much and i want you to know that you are beyond words and keep me going strong if by any chance you do read this pick up the phone and call me cuz i would LOVE to hang out just me and you just like old times and i am sorry i am every where with this but thats kinda how my feeling are right now