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I talk like an asshole on livejournal. I say asshole things. I don't know why.
I feel reclusive, I feel like everyday I isolate myself more and more from more and more people and I don't even want to do that. Maybe that's not even true - maybe I need to delete my myspace account, maybe I need to get over my anxieties regarding phone calls and e-mails. Maybe I am permanently on an anxious roller coaster.
Last night, I got so mad I couldn't believe I go so mad so easily. My girlfriend's sister's boyfriend is the biggest douche of the century - arrogant tard who talks about himself too much and always has something so say about everything even if he only knows trivial things regarding the conversation piece. Tries way too hard to impress and is way too ugly to take seriously.
I haven't disliked anyone this violently in forever, the last person I hated this violently is a rapist. I don't understand. The guy definitly sucks, but to feel so much rage toward him is rediculous.
More and more I feel like somehow isolate myself from people and I don't even know how or if that's even true. I just get depressed sometimes when I think about some of my friends and how our friendships have gone from being best friends to awkward friends.
Then I remember how it all started, being sad, not feeling supported and it's hard to keep a straight face. Then I remember how many people I am getting closer to and I consider deleting my myspace account.
I feel reclusive, I feel like everyday I isolate myself more and more from more and more people and I don't even want to do that. Maybe that's not even true - maybe I need to delete my myspace account, maybe I need to get over my anxieties regarding phone calls and e-mails. Maybe I am permanently on an anxious roller coaster.
Last night, I got so mad I couldn't believe I go so mad so easily. My girlfriend's sister's boyfriend is the biggest douche of the century - arrogant tard who talks about himself too much and always has something so say about everything even if he only knows trivial things regarding the conversation piece. Tries way too hard to impress and is way too ugly to take seriously.
I haven't disliked anyone this violently in forever, the last person I hated this violently is a rapist. I don't understand. The guy definitly sucks, but to feel so much rage toward him is rediculous.
More and more I feel like somehow isolate myself from people and I don't even know how or if that's even true. I just get depressed sometimes when I think about some of my friends and how our friendships have gone from being best friends to awkward friends.
Then I remember how it all started, being sad, not feeling supported and it's hard to keep a straight face. Then I remember how many people I am getting closer to and I consider deleting my myspace account.