Apr 01, 2004 20:40
So I'm staring at this blank box wondering how to put my thoughts into words. So much is going through my head right now...I don't know what to make of any of this. I'm so....emotional right now...Any little thing sets me off and makes me cry.
Examples:
-Allegra asked me if I was ticklish.
Maddy is the only person who can tickle me. I got all watery-eyed in the C-Store, but I held my tears back.
-The present I ordered for Maddy from the Softball fundraiser came today.
I thought "Maddy would really like this" and started crying in the middle of sixth hour. I couldn't hold my tears back anymore.
-I had to get in my wallet to get a phone number and saw Maddy's picture.
I had to go to the back with a roll of toilet paper. I have never cried so hard.
The last time I cried in front of people was in 4th grade when my desk leg collapsed and all my books fell to the floor and everyone laughed at me.
I'm so confused...I don't know what to do...I just want everything to be ok...Someone tell me it's gonna be ok...(making me believe you will be the hard part) I've got a certain someone in mind who I'd really like to hear it from...