I will not doubt you with the passing of time.
so my birthday was great. at first i thought no one was going to show up. katie and jamie were there first then steph and jen. we caught up a bit an all, it was great. then rory, marina, and stowe came and i was completely happy. if no one else showed up after them...i would have been all right with that. but then justin, laura, bridie, stacy, and heather all showed up too. and it was so great to have all these people. then later alicia and greg came. i think i got every one...
we ate food. looked through yearbooks and pictures. memories came rushing back. we went down to the beach. marina, rory, stowe, and i went in the water. it was windy. water was cold at the end of the dock, but warm by the ladder. again memories came rushing back. my eyes stayed open the whole time. went back up warmed up and started a fire in the front yard. we ate smores and talked and joked and burned stuff. slowly people started to leave. justin rory and i walked to the beach wicked late at night...i think 3 am?? looked at the sky, talked about music and ghosts. justin left and rory went to bed. i laid in bed. couldn't sleep. my heart was beating out of my chest the entire night for some reason. i felt so happy, but so anxious.
i love all my friends. and i love to see them. and i love seeing them happy and joking around. that's the most of my memories, my friends joking around and having fun. i don't really have many memories of bad times...other than the ones that i obsess over.
so i thank all my friends for coming. i hope they all had fun. and i want to see them all more often this summer. because last summer sucked balls. but i want this summer, to be a new summer.
i don't want to sleep ever again, because i think i'm going to miss something. and if i do sleep, i only want to have it be in someone's arms.
we ate food. looked through yearbooks and pictures. memories came rushing back. we went down to the beach. marina, rory, stowe, and i went in the water. it was windy. water was cold at the end of the dock, but warm by the ladder. again memories came rushing back. my eyes stayed open the whole time. went back up warmed up and started a fire in the front yard. we ate smores and talked and joked and burned stuff. slowly people started to leave. justin rory and i walked to the beach wicked late at night...i think 3 am?? looked at the sky, talked about music and ghosts. justin left and rory went to bed. i laid in bed. couldn't sleep. my heart was beating out of my chest the entire night for some reason. i felt so happy, but so anxious.
i love all my friends. and i love to see them. and i love seeing them happy and joking around. that's the most of my memories, my friends joking around and having fun. i don't really have many memories of bad times...other than the ones that i obsess over.
so i thank all my friends for coming. i hope they all had fun. and i want to see them all more often this summer. because last summer sucked balls. but i want this summer, to be a new summer.
i don't want to sleep ever again, because i think i'm going to miss something. and if i do sleep, i only want to have it be in someone's arms.