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so i just got an email from a girl wanting MU done for a wedding and 9 others. i was not aware my cards were still at starting forever but apparently they are. i am not sure what to make of this. if i were 100 percent confident in my abilities it would be a no brainer. good money and its FUN. i am just so hard on myself and so critical. it is hard for me to stand back and say wow this is really good, you did a great job. i HAVE been working on my intending/affirmations, i put the lousise hay 'you can heal your life' cd on my ipod to listen to at work and that helps just bc it makes me feel better to listen to it. over and over.it is not in order though so the parts come in randomly, so itll be like...atreyu dionne the arsonist and then..'i looove myself therefore..and 'you can only change others by changing yourself first'. so its kinda funny. although this is not what i was intending, i feel it may be a sign. maybe a new chance? it is my belief that my thoughts about how i didnt feel my work was good enough was what kept clients away. i really do think that. it is just odd that in the last year since i "left" starting forever i have not received one client or email/phone call (that i know of, its possible i could have deleted any email if i thought it was junk, thinking i was no longer w/ them)...and then i start my affirmation/intending work and there it is. i was not intending for a new job at all really though. but thats ok.