not for you.
so i havent been on here
in so long.
much has gone on in my life since.
some good and some bad.
ive experience alot and learned alot.
its really hard loosing people you love.
3 years ago i lost my nana. the person
who i could tell everything too and get
her opinion on everything and run to when
things were wrong, even when i would screw up
she never onced judged me or made me feel
wronged, she was my bestfriend.
Before nana i lost my moms side grandma
and grammpa. i wasnt so close with them
as i was with my dads side but they still
taught me valuable lessons. my grammpa
was the one that taught me piano.
just last month my pop past Febuary 1, 2006.
on my nana's birthday. ive never watched
someone die right in front of me. it was a slow
painful experience but im glad i was there with him.
my pop was so amazing. smartest man ive ever known
a wise but quiet man, but still when he did have
a conversation with you, trust me it was a good one
he would never bore you. him and my nana were soulmates.
there was no doubt about it. ever since my nana pasted
pop was more quiet than usual very depressed, he didnt
have to say it, you just knew. he wasnt happy
without her, my nana held the family together.
im so greatful i had such amazing grandparents to be
around growing up.
just this morning my mom had a mild heart attack.
she's stable now.
this year has been such an eye opener to me
and my brothers.
we take such advantage of her we dont even notice
it at times. and i think its rediculous that something
like this has to happen to the woman we love most
be suffering while were be childish.
my mom is an amazing mom just like any other mom out there im sure,
even though she doesnt get involved with my
bullshit or let me stay out late whatever i complain about
these days, but thats not what makes a good mom.
i think it takes love and care.
to make sure your child has food in their stomachs a roof
over there head and a bed to sleep in at night.
whatever it is.
my mom stresses WAY too much. its so ridiculous that
its caused her a heart attack.
and theres nothing us kids can say to change her ways
shes a stubborn bitch no doubt about it.
so all me and my brothers can do is try our god damn hardest
to make sure that she stays healthy and that we
do the little shit that drives my mom insane if we dont
do it.
i dont know what i would do if i lost my mom.
that is all.
i just needed to vent.
i lost my journal so this will
have to do.
in so long.
much has gone on in my life since.
some good and some bad.
ive experience alot and learned alot.
its really hard loosing people you love.
3 years ago i lost my nana. the person
who i could tell everything too and get
her opinion on everything and run to when
things were wrong, even when i would screw up
she never onced judged me or made me feel
wronged, she was my bestfriend.
Before nana i lost my moms side grandma
and grammpa. i wasnt so close with them
as i was with my dads side but they still
taught me valuable lessons. my grammpa
was the one that taught me piano.
just last month my pop past Febuary 1, 2006.
on my nana's birthday. ive never watched
someone die right in front of me. it was a slow
painful experience but im glad i was there with him.
my pop was so amazing. smartest man ive ever known
a wise but quiet man, but still when he did have
a conversation with you, trust me it was a good one
he would never bore you. him and my nana were soulmates.
there was no doubt about it. ever since my nana pasted
pop was more quiet than usual very depressed, he didnt
have to say it, you just knew. he wasnt happy
without her, my nana held the family together.
im so greatful i had such amazing grandparents to be
around growing up.
just this morning my mom had a mild heart attack.
she's stable now.
this year has been such an eye opener to me
and my brothers.
we take such advantage of her we dont even notice
it at times. and i think its rediculous that something
like this has to happen to the woman we love most
be suffering while were be childish.
my mom is an amazing mom just like any other mom out there im sure,
even though she doesnt get involved with my
bullshit or let me stay out late whatever i complain about
these days, but thats not what makes a good mom.
i think it takes love and care.
to make sure your child has food in their stomachs a roof
over there head and a bed to sleep in at night.
whatever it is.
my mom stresses WAY too much. its so ridiculous that
its caused her a heart attack.
and theres nothing us kids can say to change her ways
shes a stubborn bitch no doubt about it.
so all me and my brothers can do is try our god damn hardest
to make sure that she stays healthy and that we
do the little shit that drives my mom insane if we dont
do it.
i dont know what i would do if i lost my mom.
that is all.
i just needed to vent.
i lost my journal so this will
have to do.