:: mixed blessings ::
This week has been full of mediocre ups and downs. It's like that little kiddie roller coaster you used to ride at the fair when you were small. The one where you sat in a dragon and all it did was go around a circle and go up and down, in mildly aggressive motions. That's still the only roller coaster I've ever ridden.
Basically I'm ok... But then again, the emo-kid side of me wants to go wallow in a corner with his buddies self-pity and social isolationism. My Astros lost, I've had a lot of schoolwork. The Aggies got creamed by Iowa State today. My romantic life isn't exactly in full swing.
But there's lots of small things that have been good. I managed to get my paper done without dying. Aggie Soccer is awesome, we beat Baylor 4-0, Big 12 Champs! I got to see Nancy and Thomas today, and both of them are going to be at Java Wesley. Jarrod, Elizabeth and I saw Saw II and The Weatherman the last two nights. Both were good, but The Weatherman was better (and is highly recommended on Marc's top movie list). rearranged my room this evening. I got to talk to Alicia for the first time in forever. I have a pimp new suit, and I got a haircut.
But all at the same time, I feel highly unfulfilled. I think I'm going to try and pursue some more items of self-satisfaction, and this may mean that I have to take time out of what I don't have to take time out of, in order to do the things I'd like to do. Wow, I think that was one of the most confusing sentences I've ever written. Basically, some things that I don't really want to set aside are going to have to be put on hold at certain times if I'm going to be spiritually and emotionally satisfied.
I need some more God in my life. This is a hard thing to accomplish sometimes. I feel like I'm at the end of everything, as always. But life will work out, it always does. God is faithful, He always IS. And I think that is one of the most powerful and comforting thoughts my brain can attempt to wrap around.
Basically I'm ok... But then again, the emo-kid side of me wants to go wallow in a corner with his buddies self-pity and social isolationism. My Astros lost, I've had a lot of schoolwork. The Aggies got creamed by Iowa State today. My romantic life isn't exactly in full swing.
But there's lots of small things that have been good. I managed to get my paper done without dying. Aggie Soccer is awesome, we beat Baylor 4-0, Big 12 Champs! I got to see Nancy and Thomas today, and both of them are going to be at Java Wesley. Jarrod, Elizabeth and I saw Saw II and The Weatherman the last two nights. Both were good, but The Weatherman was better (and is highly recommended on Marc's top movie list). rearranged my room this evening. I got to talk to Alicia for the first time in forever. I have a pimp new suit, and I got a haircut.
But all at the same time, I feel highly unfulfilled. I think I'm going to try and pursue some more items of self-satisfaction, and this may mean that I have to take time out of what I don't have to take time out of, in order to do the things I'd like to do. Wow, I think that was one of the most confusing sentences I've ever written. Basically, some things that I don't really want to set aside are going to have to be put on hold at certain times if I'm going to be spiritually and emotionally satisfied.
I need some more God in my life. This is a hard thing to accomplish sometimes. I feel like I'm at the end of everything, as always. But life will work out, it always does. God is faithful, He always IS. And I think that is one of the most powerful and comforting thoughts my brain can attempt to wrap around.