jaw grinding and eye pustules

[yourmysecret]

all i can think about is bettering myself
all i can think about is having you fall in love with me
all i can think about is my chemistry paper
all i can think about is not being here in sarasota
all i can think about is how stupid i feel about some of my last posts
all i can think about is how stupid it is to have a crush
all i can think about is my swollen eye lids
all i can think about is the headache my jaw is giving me
all i can think about is trying not to cry
all i can think about is making things better
all i can think about is the sun coming out
all i can think about is throwing up
all i can think about is the next time i'll be in your arms
all i can think about is sleeping
all i can think about is spanish
all i can think about is you not reading this
all i can think about is how i'm not a waiter
all i can think about is learning how to relax
all i can think about is breathing
breathing
breathing
relaxing
breaths
breathe
relax
relapse
tight chest will do me no good
it's always calm before the storm

i'm future nervous
i don't know what i want to do with my life
i'm thinking back in the art mode lately, why the hell did i consider science????
i unfolded my jacket to find ants crawling all over it
talking about this stuff makes me nervous too, 'cause it feels good to write lists like these, but i don't want it to push you away