broken foot and mean spirits
God, when did I turn into such a bullie?
There is nothing for me to figure out. NOTHING. So why do I keep thinking that there is? Why do I insist on torturing myself about everything I think about? Why do I obsess if I know I suck at something? I suck at piano and yet instead of just taking it like I should at lessons I get anxious on Tuesday and then I have small panic attacks on Wednesdays. wtf. & then I think people don't want to hang out with me. Which isn't the case at all. I'm perfectly likeable and yet my bff would rather hangout and eat football shaped donuts with some christians. & why do I think I suck!? I've got awesome hair, long legs, and I'm not obese nor do I grow any facial hair, oh and not to mention I'm smart!..and yet I think I don't measure up to any other female bistander.
Can I sleep for a week?
Please.
When I was in my early teens I babysat for money. & let me tell you did I have some experiences or what. I watched a brother and sister when I was 15. The boy thought he was a dinosaur so of course he went around drop-kicking his siter and biting chunks out of me. NIGHTMARE. & then when I was 14 I watched a kid for 20 fucking bucks!! for like 6 hours!!!!! His mom only let us eat junk food and we couldn't go to the park so instead we watched some movie with Hailey Joel Osmand in it and then he was so hyped up on sugar that he wanted to play video games. Yeah that night sucked.
There is nothing for me to figure out. NOTHING. So why do I keep thinking that there is? Why do I insist on torturing myself about everything I think about? Why do I obsess if I know I suck at something? I suck at piano and yet instead of just taking it like I should at lessons I get anxious on Tuesday and then I have small panic attacks on Wednesdays. wtf. & then I think people don't want to hang out with me. Which isn't the case at all. I'm perfectly likeable and yet my bff would rather hangout and eat football shaped donuts with some christians. & why do I think I suck!? I've got awesome hair, long legs, and I'm not obese nor do I grow any facial hair, oh and not to mention I'm smart!..and yet I think I don't measure up to any other female bistander.
Can I sleep for a week?
Please.
When I was in my early teens I babysat for money. & let me tell you did I have some experiences or what. I watched a brother and sister when I was 15. The boy thought he was a dinosaur so of course he went around drop-kicking his siter and biting chunks out of me. NIGHTMARE. & then when I was 14 I watched a kid for 20 fucking bucks!! for like 6 hours!!!!! His mom only let us eat junk food and we couldn't go to the park so instead we watched some movie with Hailey Joel Osmand in it and then he was so hyped up on sugar that he wanted to play video games. Yeah that night sucked.