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i really hope this break is going to be good.
i hope the show is good.
i hope my parents dont interfer with my plans.
i hope my emotions dont ruin this break.
i hope i get a good report in school.
i hope i am not a dick to anybody.
this week was a pretty hard one for me, i really dont know why. i guess all these emotions and feelings are coming at me at once, and i really cant handel it anymore. all i know is that im moving on. i cant sit and wait here, till something happens. i will move on, and that time will be now.These emotions that i am feeling arent making me happy.& to be happy i need to just stop them all together. i am a strong enough person to understand that. & there will be many changes i will overcome. I am not going to let anyone step all over me this week or make me out to a Fool. That already kinda happend this week already, and im still embarassed by it. I know its not a big deal, but when something happens like this, it makes me think what people think of me. I know i shouldnt care, but sometimes i do. Im human, and i care. I dont want people thinking im a fucking weirdo, when im not. Whatever, im reading too much into this ; and i will stop. Its not worth the energy. I think i am wearing myself out from all these things that are charging at my head again. I just wish life was different for me sometimes. My friends are awesome people. They are always there for me, and thats what i love about them. Today when i stayed after for internation night, we all just sat outside talking. It makes me feel really good when i can go to people ; and they can help me with things. I like that feeling. Also, my friends just help me all the time. I know i can become highstrong and take things the wrong way sometimes, but i cant help that. I just think maybe everyones out to get me? As you can tell, i am a very self conciouse person && i shouldnt be like that. But I am. I sometimes feel i am helpless. WOW, i keep on ranting on and on about myself. Its getting me sick already.
Oh and Btw. OAK TREE ICE TEA DOES WONDERS. I fucking had a soar neck and a headace and when i drank that motha fucka, it was gone.
I<3oaktreeicetea.
i hope the show is good.
i hope my parents dont interfer with my plans.
i hope my emotions dont ruin this break.
i hope i get a good report in school.
i hope i am not a dick to anybody.
this week was a pretty hard one for me, i really dont know why. i guess all these emotions and feelings are coming at me at once, and i really cant handel it anymore. all i know is that im moving on. i cant sit and wait here, till something happens. i will move on, and that time will be now.These emotions that i am feeling arent making me happy.& to be happy i need to just stop them all together. i am a strong enough person to understand that. & there will be many changes i will overcome. I am not going to let anyone step all over me this week or make me out to a Fool. That already kinda happend this week already, and im still embarassed by it. I know its not a big deal, but when something happens like this, it makes me think what people think of me. I know i shouldnt care, but sometimes i do. Im human, and i care. I dont want people thinking im a fucking weirdo, when im not. Whatever, im reading too much into this ; and i will stop. Its not worth the energy. I think i am wearing myself out from all these things that are charging at my head again. I just wish life was different for me sometimes. My friends are awesome people. They are always there for me, and thats what i love about them. Today when i stayed after for internation night, we all just sat outside talking. It makes me feel really good when i can go to people ; and they can help me with things. I like that feeling. Also, my friends just help me all the time. I know i can become highstrong and take things the wrong way sometimes, but i cant help that. I just think maybe everyones out to get me? As you can tell, i am a very self conciouse person && i shouldnt be like that. But I am. I sometimes feel i am helpless. WOW, i keep on ranting on and on about myself. Its getting me sick already.
Oh and Btw. OAK TREE ICE TEA DOES WONDERS. I fucking had a soar neck and a headace and when i drank that motha fucka, it was gone.
I<3oaktreeicetea.