The plans I made still have you in them.
As much as I try to refrain from sounding so melancholy in here it's difficult because I never feel the need to write when I feel otherwise.
How do you remain friends with someone who at one time was your entire world? It doesn't feel like much else has changed in that aspect so how do I try and develop a friendship with those circumstances in mind? It makes me think something is seriously wrong with me that I can't function well enough to do such a seemingly simple thing. It's not a matter of not caring enough but caring too much. Every single time I end up talking to him or even see that he's made an attempt to reach me, I end up crying. I don't understand why I am having such difficulties with all this. I've had 6 months to cope and I've come up with nothing. I'm still convinced there's no one else even though I've pretty much assumed it's never going to work out. So this just leaves me alone unless something huge changes. I just wish he was done running away from everything. I miss everything about him. I would do anything to get it all back.
How do you remain friends with someone who at one time was your entire world? It doesn't feel like much else has changed in that aspect so how do I try and develop a friendship with those circumstances in mind? It makes me think something is seriously wrong with me that I can't function well enough to do such a seemingly simple thing. It's not a matter of not caring enough but caring too much. Every single time I end up talking to him or even see that he's made an attempt to reach me, I end up crying. I don't understand why I am having such difficulties with all this. I've had 6 months to cope and I've come up with nothing. I'm still convinced there's no one else even though I've pretty much assumed it's never going to work out. So this just leaves me alone unless something huge changes. I just wish he was done running away from everything. I miss everything about him. I would do anything to get it all back.