back in ny
i am back at sarah lawrence and i don't really know how i feel about it. they won't give me the key to my room still, even though i'm all unpacked and moved in. hopefully that will change sometime in the next hour. i don't have a computer still, so i am at the library using the internet with jen.
my room is really nice, as is the apartment. i took over a lot of cabinet space with food as i am not going to be on a meal plan and will be cooking a lot. i left three apples in a bowl on the table because i thought they looked nice but they got eaten so i won't be doing that again. other than that the girls in my apartment seem nice. esther is mad at me because i said that i don't need to speak yiddish, that german is more important. whatever. i like being able to speak a language that i'm learning. you know? i think that is valid. i really do have my own bathroom, and my room is kind of set off by a hallway from the rest of the apartment so it's really nice and private. i like that tklein is downstairs and jen lee is a block away. i used to hate the idea of living in hill house but i think it's the best place for this semester.
wally left yesterday and i won't see him again for two and a half weeks. every night we talk things over more and more and i still don't feel like we've talked it to death & i still feel like there's more to say & i still don't know what i want or what he wants. i think we'd both gotten a little confused. i think i was expecting too much and he was expecting too little. i think we had been ignoring other problems until this whole not-moving-to-ny thing highlighted them, and i'm glad that they came up. they needed to be discussed.
oh, and our apartment has a dishwasher. what up, luxury?! that's really exciting to me.
my room is really nice, as is the apartment. i took over a lot of cabinet space with food as i am not going to be on a meal plan and will be cooking a lot. i left three apples in a bowl on the table because i thought they looked nice but they got eaten so i won't be doing that again. other than that the girls in my apartment seem nice. esther is mad at me because i said that i don't need to speak yiddish, that german is more important. whatever. i like being able to speak a language that i'm learning. you know? i think that is valid. i really do have my own bathroom, and my room is kind of set off by a hallway from the rest of the apartment so it's really nice and private. i like that tklein is downstairs and jen lee is a block away. i used to hate the idea of living in hill house but i think it's the best place for this semester.
wally left yesterday and i won't see him again for two and a half weeks. every night we talk things over more and more and i still don't feel like we've talked it to death & i still feel like there's more to say & i still don't know what i want or what he wants. i think we'd both gotten a little confused. i think i was expecting too much and he was expecting too little. i think we had been ignoring other problems until this whole not-moving-to-ny thing highlighted them, and i'm glad that they came up. they needed to be discussed.
oh, and our apartment has a dishwasher. what up, luxury?! that's really exciting to me.