Wake Me Up Inside.....
So today, everything finally became clear! I started my period! lol YAY, right?
I was SO nervous....maybe we should do something about that... lol
Anyways, i cleaned andy's WHOLE apartment all day today...well not all day... for about 2 or 3 hours....but i didn't do his room bc it is just clothes and he can do it himself... the only thing is... he probably won't do it... i cleaned the apartment bc i couldnt stay here in the FILTH any longer than i had, so i cleaned it, even though i had THE WORST cramps IN THE HISTORY of AMERICA when i started! Oh well, they stopped cos i took 46 tylanols...ok 3...lol
anyways...im not sleeping in that room of he doesnt clean it...i'll sleep on the couch...and even tho its not that comfortable to sleep on, if you get tired JUST enough, it feels like a waveless water bed.... ok... and after a few beers...
Anyways, i am so happy right now...after a few things i've done and been thru in my life, i was starting to think and feel that i didn't deserve to be happy...TRUELY happy... ever again... but God has a way of giving you shit for a long time, say your whole LIFE, and then finally putting you were you need to be, and WITH the person that will take care of you and love you more than you ever thought possible.
Andy is such a blessing, and even if i don't act like it sometimes, i don't know where i would be without him...
It's weird...LOVE... you never think you'll find real love....and then one day you wake up, and you're knee deep and head over heels :)
i think i want to be a journalist.... and have my own column.... like Kerry in Sex and the City ... i'm starting to think i'd be good at that... giving advice is ONE of my specialties.... maybe.... i think i'll go thru with my psych classes and general ed... THEN decide on the rest of my life for good
Thanks for REadiNG xoxo
I was SO nervous....maybe we should do something about that... lol
Anyways, i cleaned andy's WHOLE apartment all day today...well not all day... for about 2 or 3 hours....but i didn't do his room bc it is just clothes and he can do it himself... the only thing is... he probably won't do it... i cleaned the apartment bc i couldnt stay here in the FILTH any longer than i had, so i cleaned it, even though i had THE WORST cramps IN THE HISTORY of AMERICA when i started! Oh well, they stopped cos i took 46 tylanols...ok 3...lol
anyways...im not sleeping in that room of he doesnt clean it...i'll sleep on the couch...and even tho its not that comfortable to sleep on, if you get tired JUST enough, it feels like a waveless water bed.... ok... and after a few beers...
Anyways, i am so happy right now...after a few things i've done and been thru in my life, i was starting to think and feel that i didn't deserve to be happy...TRUELY happy... ever again... but God has a way of giving you shit for a long time, say your whole LIFE, and then finally putting you were you need to be, and WITH the person that will take care of you and love you more than you ever thought possible.
Andy is such a blessing, and even if i don't act like it sometimes, i don't know where i would be without him...
It's weird...LOVE... you never think you'll find real love....and then one day you wake up, and you're knee deep and head over heels :)
i think i want to be a journalist.... and have my own column.... like Kerry in Sex and the City ... i'm starting to think i'd be good at that... giving advice is ONE of my specialties.... maybe.... i think i'll go thru with my psych classes and general ed... THEN decide on the rest of my life for good
Thanks for REadiNG xoxo