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[yourluckycharm]

being left in the dust is the worst feeling in the world.... to know that everything we planned and I believed as true was all a hoax. it stings. for you to just walk away before I could... for you to be such a con artist that I believed everything you said and let my guard down.... I don't understand why the heart can possibly hurt like this on its own. its not logical to believe that the heart knows more than the brain does. but that's all I know right now... as much as I love you it doesn't seem fair that I can't have you. that you would walk away like everyone else when I thought for sure that you were different, when you convinced me you were different, that you weren't like everyone else that's screwed me over in the past. but I guess you were? I dunno. I still don't want to think its true. I have more faith in you than that... I've cared about you more than I've cared about anyone, but I guess that's not enough. I guess all I can say is I tried and that's all I can do when it comes to matters of the heart. I can't make someone care about me as much as I do them and I've learned that one too many times. so I'm not going to beg or anything like that. if this is it, then its it and I hope you have a great life and that you eventualy find someone that you care about as much as they do you. I love you more than you could possibly imagine but if that is not enough then I understand... I wish you nothing but the best and that's all I can do...

my heart hurts so bad right now.... its amazing how shit can get ruined in a split second.