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its amazing how much i miss Lathan right now and how everything was a year ago... i never thought that over 4 months later itd still be this hard sometimes. where all i can think about is what it used to be like with us all. what it was like when he was still here. i came to terms with why he died. he saved 7 peoples lives in the process. but it seems unfair that he led such a great life and touched so many people only to be taken away from the ones who were closest to him, when theres so many more people out there that could have taken his place. ones who would rather not be living in the first place... ones who live their lives not to the fullest, not taking every chance they can get and living lives at expenses of other poeple. but lathan? what harm did he ever do to anyone?? why him?
since his death ive had 2 dreams about him that were more real than ever. one where he said goodbye and one where he said hello.... ive been begging him to talk to me again. to see him again. to tell me hes okay..... please.
tonight i want nothing more than to be in jobes garage, with EVERYONE, spending every last second of the night living to the fullest. bullshitting about everything and growing even more close.
but that will never happen again and that is what upsets me the most.
we will NEVER again have those times.
heres to the breezes.....
since his death ive had 2 dreams about him that were more real than ever. one where he said goodbye and one where he said hello.... ive been begging him to talk to me again. to see him again. to tell me hes okay..... please.
tonight i want nothing more than to be in jobes garage, with EVERYONE, spending every last second of the night living to the fullest. bullshitting about everything and growing even more close.
but that will never happen again and that is what upsets me the most.
we will NEVER again have those times.
heres to the breezes.....