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[yourlovesavedme]

I got my hair cut today.. pictures soon.. but thats not what this update about.. this update is about how amazing my boyfriend is.(i know thats said alot and all.. but most of the people who say that the relationship ends up being crap... not ours) i cant believe i have been so so lucky as to get a guy who cares just so damn much not only about me but about Nevaeh. Its just outstanding to me. Theres a big big chance that I could be pregnant... and Rick is just so worried about me missing stuff I really dont care about right now. Like me missing prom and graduation cermony and such.But I wish I could find a way to make it clear to him that none of that matters to me. To me prom is just a dance and Id have to get a dress on and all that crap which I hateeee doing, and then i dont wanna do the graduation cermony because I hateeee getting up in front of a bunch of people. And mom and dad would get over it. I just want him to understand that when its 10.. 20.. 50 years from now Im not gonna regret anything.. everything happens for a reason and as long as he loves me I have nothing to fear.. with him I dont have anything to fear.. Hes willing to do anything for Nevaeh and I and thats something Im not use to but I want him to understand I would do anything for him and Nevaeh, without them Id be nothing. Hes afraid hes going to mess up my life.. but in all actuality hes saved my life.. since ive started dating him, im happier.. Ive managed to really quit smoking, ive quit cutting myself.. because of him i am alive.. and nothing will ever make me regret what is going on now.. I know that things wont be easy.. but I know we'll make it.. I know we'll be okie if I am pregnant. I know that times will be hard.. but we'll make it through and well be alright .. Id do anything for him... i want so bad to show him theres no need to worry or to fear.. Im not going to regret anything down the road.. because i know this is all happening right now for a reason.

Rick~~ I know you read this.. so please trust me when I say I will not regret any of this down the road.. that it will all be alright.. I love you so much and I just want to make sure your ok with this. I dont want you regreting any of this.. or anything down the road.. all I want is for you to be happy.. and I know we'll make it.. Baby we'll be alright I promise.. With you I have nothing to fear... just trust me when I say I love you and I will until the end. <33