breakaway
lately almost everything is sucking. completely sucky. my family blows-both my parents are so immature and act like two high school kids. and the fact that my dad might be moving about a block away from my moms isnt going to make matters better. ive been feeling so uncomfortable around my dad lately. hes a disgusting, dirty, horney middle aged man. what i know is too much to know and it just makes me so uncomfortable around him. i wish i was still his little "sweet pea" that i used to be, where i could have a good time with him, laugh, and just be his little girl. but i cant. he looks at all women the same these days, something he wants to fuck.
well with my mom-just the single mom whos trying to look like a 20 year old skank. she has a bf but keeps wanting to go back to the one bf that fucked her over 10 times. then, she brings home guys when im sleeping and makes a fool out of herself. she doesnt have a job, bc she thinks she can survive on her alimony money, pretty pathetic eh? then she complains about having to spend so much on our house and such....but it was her decision to stay in the house.
my brother, hes becoming so bad i dont even know how to explain it. he never comes home-he stays at his friend tims during the week and then goes to my dads on the weekend-supposedly. my moms also upset about that-but when he comes home she doesnt do anything about his behavior or anything so he just goes and does it again. pisses me off so bad. bc when i was a junior and i did something like that i would be grounded in a heartbeat. but whatever...ugh
mike and me are alright-we've been getting in little fights recently-none that last more than a few hours but its aggravating. i love him to death and things are getting tough with seeing eachother and stuff bc of me going to school and him working. either of us dont have cars so its also harder to see eachother as much as we want. our one year is coming up soon though, which is something to look forward to:) but we have 2 days to celebrate it, considering our anniversary is on a leap day!
i need friends here so badly. in a way i feel lonely. i meen i have michael but i need girlfriends. the ones i miss are away at college-yes you know who you are. but i hope that when i start school on monday i will make some friends. im so shy tho when it somce to meeting people. i hope i can look past my shyness and talk to someone. i just miss having close-by friends so badly.
plus ive been feeling guilty about my "decision" lately. ive been crying a bit more than i usually do. just thinking about gives me chills and tears. i hate it. everything just seems so sucky today..
boo hoo
well with my mom-just the single mom whos trying to look like a 20 year old skank. she has a bf but keeps wanting to go back to the one bf that fucked her over 10 times. then, she brings home guys when im sleeping and makes a fool out of herself. she doesnt have a job, bc she thinks she can survive on her alimony money, pretty pathetic eh? then she complains about having to spend so much on our house and such....but it was her decision to stay in the house.
my brother, hes becoming so bad i dont even know how to explain it. he never comes home-he stays at his friend tims during the week and then goes to my dads on the weekend-supposedly. my moms also upset about that-but when he comes home she doesnt do anything about his behavior or anything so he just goes and does it again. pisses me off so bad. bc when i was a junior and i did something like that i would be grounded in a heartbeat. but whatever...ugh
mike and me are alright-we've been getting in little fights recently-none that last more than a few hours but its aggravating. i love him to death and things are getting tough with seeing eachother and stuff bc of me going to school and him working. either of us dont have cars so its also harder to see eachother as much as we want. our one year is coming up soon though, which is something to look forward to:) but we have 2 days to celebrate it, considering our anniversary is on a leap day!
i need friends here so badly. in a way i feel lonely. i meen i have michael but i need girlfriends. the ones i miss are away at college-yes you know who you are. but i hope that when i start school on monday i will make some friends. im so shy tho when it somce to meeting people. i hope i can look past my shyness and talk to someone. i just miss having close-by friends so badly.
plus ive been feeling guilty about my "decision" lately. ive been crying a bit more than i usually do. just thinking about gives me chills and tears. i hate it. everything just seems so sucky today..
boo hoo