fatso
im so full-and the word fatso is what im feeling. ughhh. every time i eat i feel this feeling of uncomfortable fullness. it sucks, and its not like i eat too much-its what i eat regularly, i just feel so damn full after it now. maybe im just not eating right and my body's catching up with it. hmmm i dont know it's uncomfortable though. i should have lost weight by now anyways but it just seems like i have too much going on to work out. "busy people find time though." i wouldnt say im "busy" too much either. i work, go to school and do my school work the morning it's due. so would i be considered lazy then? i know i could do better, but i just feel the need to not do some things. for example, when i know i have a psych test on 4 or 5 chapters i barely look at it. Why? because its too much information for my little brain to remember. In my education class, we write papers, do presentations and listen to people's presentations. I had to do a presentation this morning at 12. I woke up at 8:15, wrote out some notecards and got a 7 out of 8 on my presentation-only because i didn't do a powerpoint. I'd say I do enough to get by. I wish i wasen't this way though. I think i do things in spite of what my mom wants me to do. I really have noticed that in the past few weeks. In taking care of my health, why wouldnt I want to get better? I don't know but my mom bitches about everything including that so maybe that's the reason i don't do as I should with my diabetes. I'm kind of in a thinking mood today. Im not high and im really not that bored. I have things on my mind, thats all.
Haha speaking of high, I was on the computer this morning and Melissa (Michaels sister) imed me and started talking to me. I was like wow this is odd-long time no talk. For some reason or another I thought she hated me...guess not. Like alot of people, we're on and off friends. She's back in her house for now she says and just talked to me about her trip down to Miami. Goodness did I hear more than I wanted to about a certain, disgusting individual-yuck. Boy am I glad I got out of "that" when I did. Phew.
Melissa want's to smoke with me on 420-the day we're all driving up for Michael's graduation. Now, I'd really like to but i shouldnt because of 2 things:
1. I can't be high around adults because I get so so so paranoid.
2. Michael would serousily look down upon me-plus it's his graduation.
So, I'm not going to, I can't for mine and Michael's sake. I know I'm being a little bitch but it's the right thing to do. and even better, it's only 2 weeks from today! Holy canoli is that exciting or what?!?!?! (for me it is!)
I need to find something to wear...hmmmmmm. Girly girls, help me out please please please. What should I wear. if anyone see's anything that would look good for me, tell me! hehehehhe i love you thanks.
ok off to algebra!
mwah:)
Haha speaking of high, I was on the computer this morning and Melissa (Michaels sister) imed me and started talking to me. I was like wow this is odd-long time no talk. For some reason or another I thought she hated me...guess not. Like alot of people, we're on and off friends. She's back in her house for now she says and just talked to me about her trip down to Miami. Goodness did I hear more than I wanted to about a certain, disgusting individual-yuck. Boy am I glad I got out of "that" when I did. Phew.
Melissa want's to smoke with me on 420-the day we're all driving up for Michael's graduation. Now, I'd really like to but i shouldnt because of 2 things:
1. I can't be high around adults because I get so so so paranoid.
2. Michael would serousily look down upon me-plus it's his graduation.
So, I'm not going to, I can't for mine and Michael's sake. I know I'm being a little bitch but it's the right thing to do. and even better, it's only 2 weeks from today! Holy canoli is that exciting or what?!?!?! (for me it is!)
I need to find something to wear...hmmmmmm. Girly girls, help me out please please please. What should I wear. if anyone see's anything that would look good for me, tell me! hehehehhe i love you thanks.
ok off to algebra!
mwah:)