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[yourlittlegirl]

hmmm... i havint updated in so long... really only like 4 days but thats a long time for me, cuz normally i update 6 times a day, okay anyway... my computer at my house is being retarded, cuz only instant messanger works, i dont even have the internet at my mom's right now, cuz its gay... and im there this weekend so it will be atleast another 2 days before i update again... so anyway... kelly and rich came over monday, that was fun! They're my two favorite people, plus ashley, and my mom! but anyway... yah so it was fun we played american idol and acted like idiots... this was all after kelly told me that her mom found out the thing that no one was sposed to find out, and i flipped out and then rich was like what did kelly's mom find out and i was like nothing, i'll tell you eventually... and he was like okay whatever, and then the next day we were talking on the phone while we were watching the assistant, and idk it got kinda weird cuz he was being all quiet and idk i thought something was on his mind, and then it was a commercial and he's like are you still happy with me, and i was like oh my god, yes, why? and i was trying so hard for him not to hear me crying, and he's like its just killing me that you wont tell me the thing that kelly's mom, you can tell me everything, and i was like silent for like five minutes,a nd i tried to tell him like a billion times but i culdn't talk and thne he's like please tell me it has nothing to do with andrew, then i started crying even more, cuz he's thinking that i like cheated on him or something, and i was like no dont worry its nothing like that, and eventually i ended up calling kelly thinking it wud be easier to tell him but it really wasn't so kelly just said it, and he was like jess dont worry about it, i love you and no matter waht happens, i'll still love you, dont ever think you cant tell me something and i was like histerical crying, which once again i hope he didnt hear.

so anyway, everythings perfect in that respect.

and then yesterday which was thursday (nothing exiting happened wed.) me rich and ray went to kelly's and kelly's effing awesome, cuz she just is and i love her... and yah so oh man kelly your fucking awesome, so if there's a person who duzint effing love kelly you're mest up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway i just thought i'd let everyone know that i love rich sooo effing much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and yah i love him! rich if you ever read this i just wanna let you know how much i love you, and im sorry that i cudint take the tihng... or whatever... but i promise you i will, and you'll be the first to know :) anyway... i love you more than anything and i promise i'll never keep anything from you again, you mean everything to me, and i know we can get through anything! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

okay so yah, im still at kelly's and i prolly wont get to update till monday.

so leave me some love and i'll feel special :)

btw everyone kelly's lj is bellabriteeyes so go read it fuckers!