Eric is something alright and i love him so much :] ♥
so about another year has gone by. im pretty much the same. i mean im good. im still engaged to Eric and were pretty good most of the time. he makes me happy though. and hes a goofball. idk what i ever did to deserve him but im glad i do. hes made me a better person and helpped me to grow up. not too much though :] hes really brought out my best qualities and always has. i would be lost without him to be honest. i know i might have said that about other people but i was young and ive made mistakes. when i was 15 i cheated on Eric. i kissed someone. that was a big mistake. but i learned from it. and it wasnt like i made out with this person it was just like a peck. to be honest i dont even remember thekiss but i know it happened. maybe i forgot it on purpose but i know im a better person now and im not that kind of person. i was really confused about whether i liked men or women then. to be theres not a big difference whe youre 15. i didnt know what i wanted. but i know what i want now and all i want is him. i dont think about being with anyone else. guy or girl. idk if i even consider myself bisexual or not anoymore. because idk if i could be with a woman like if i didnt have Eric because i want children one day. i want to have his chldren. we plan on 4. Hailee Nicole, Aiden Mathew, Jason Maverick, and Sara. we dont have a middle name for Sara yet though. i think we have a bright future together me and him. weve both done alot of things to hurt eachother in the past. in January he told me about a big lie. he told me he had sex with someone else before we were together but he told me i was his only one. sometimes i stay up and think about it and sometimes i still cry. but i know why he lied. he regrets it and he wants me to be his only one. thats not possible anymore but i know he wasnt in love with her. it still hurts to think about but im learning to get over it. im not going to lie but it still hurts. o well though. were going to be alright. as long as we can forgive eachother which i believe we have. idk if he will even read this but Eric i love you with all my heart and youre and amazing wonderful person. i cant wait for me and you to have a great life together because its hardly started yet and for once in my life im really looking forward to the future.