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so its 4am and for some damn reason i cant sleep! its usually cole who is up at this time!. anywho i guess ill write a little.
celebrated mine and coles moms b-days tonite (which were both last sat but coles sister and law had surgery). we went to the ventana room at ventana canyon. it was def really good, fine dining which is still a bit foreign to me. they brought us an amuse bouche which was this cheese from france that nearly smelled like dead people, it was nasty.
tomorrow night i guess cole is gonna surprise me with whatever hes gonna do for me. and sat night we are going to the aspen ball which is some charity event for the fires up on mount lemmon a couple years ago. that should be fun.
ive been reallly busy between therapy,AA work and just recovery in general..which is a good thing.
i heard a good quote today "anger is emotional drunkeness". if you stop drinking and drugging and you dont work on yourself or your resentments and continue your life with no substances you are considered a "dry drunk".
i realize i hold on to some resentments that im willing to let go of. when i do my 4th step i have to write down a list of resentments, it wont be fun but itll be liberating.
what so many AA people have told me that if you are angry at a person and still resent them they tell you to pray for them everyday. ugh that makes me shudder, i dont even want to think about these people or rather "person"whom i resent. but i made a vow in group that i would pray for this person everyday.
ohh i had an interview at MAC on tuesday! it went really well! god i hope i get that job!
peace out
celebrated mine and coles moms b-days tonite (which were both last sat but coles sister and law had surgery). we went to the ventana room at ventana canyon. it was def really good, fine dining which is still a bit foreign to me. they brought us an amuse bouche which was this cheese from france that nearly smelled like dead people, it was nasty.
tomorrow night i guess cole is gonna surprise me with whatever hes gonna do for me. and sat night we are going to the aspen ball which is some charity event for the fires up on mount lemmon a couple years ago. that should be fun.
ive been reallly busy between therapy,AA work and just recovery in general..which is a good thing.
i heard a good quote today "anger is emotional drunkeness". if you stop drinking and drugging and you dont work on yourself or your resentments and continue your life with no substances you are considered a "dry drunk".
i realize i hold on to some resentments that im willing to let go of. when i do my 4th step i have to write down a list of resentments, it wont be fun but itll be liberating.
what so many AA people have told me that if you are angry at a person and still resent them they tell you to pray for them everyday. ugh that makes me shudder, i dont even want to think about these people or rather "person"whom i resent. but i made a vow in group that i would pray for this person everyday.
ohh i had an interview at MAC on tuesday! it went really well! god i hope i get that job!
peace out