just a random day
Todays just one of thoes random days where i am thinking about alot so here goes
i miss Keith so much its crazy I dono what it is that wont let me let go of him its just seems imposible sometimes It feels like theres something i have to keep on holding on too but i know nothings gunna be how it use to any time soon it just cant and it sucks so bad theres just so much that i love about that kid nothings not like it use to be. Like when we talk it use to just be all smiles and fun now its alot of tears and smiles I am always wishing things could be differnt. But at least we are still close and we can still talk and we still get along good hes the only guy i have ever been able to do that w/ and i love it. But it still hurts that i cant be w/ him
ohh and another thing i hate how all these anonymous ppl love to say shit to me and not tell me who the fuck they are like this lil fucker who left this messege for me when i was away:
guys dont want u for a peice of ass because u sure dont have none...basically u screw it up most of the time...u have had the chance to be with a few guys...but either u just give up or u change around them...honestly u need to think back about the most people that cared about u in ur live and think about what u can change..
ok they ovbislly dont know me to well caz they have no fucking idea what they are talking about! w/e tho you ppl need to stop judging me and actually get to know me and then you can say shit.
I also hate how i can go from good to bad good to bad w/ certain ppl i wish it could all just stay on good tearms caz i hate fighting w/ them. i wish ppl would be able to talk to me about these things too so we can clear them up instead of talking to other ppl about it. I learned a lesson from all this tho. to know what i am getting my self into b4 i get involved in it so that way i know what to do/say and things wouldnt be so god damn confussing. THis is prolly not making any sence to any of you but thats ok caz these are just random thoughts of mine that i needed to let out
If you have any comments that might help me on all this please do i could use all the help i cant get :/
i miss Keith so much its crazy I dono what it is that wont let me let go of him its just seems imposible sometimes It feels like theres something i have to keep on holding on too but i know nothings gunna be how it use to any time soon it just cant and it sucks so bad theres just so much that i love about that kid nothings not like it use to be. Like when we talk it use to just be all smiles and fun now its alot of tears and smiles I am always wishing things could be differnt. But at least we are still close and we can still talk and we still get along good hes the only guy i have ever been able to do that w/ and i love it. But it still hurts that i cant be w/ him
ohh and another thing i hate how all these anonymous ppl love to say shit to me and not tell me who the fuck they are like this lil fucker who left this messege for me when i was away:
guys dont want u for a peice of ass because u sure dont have none...basically u screw it up most of the time...u have had the chance to be with a few guys...but either u just give up or u change around them...honestly u need to think back about the most people that cared about u in ur live and think about what u can change..
ok they ovbislly dont know me to well caz they have no fucking idea what they are talking about! w/e tho you ppl need to stop judging me and actually get to know me and then you can say shit.
I also hate how i can go from good to bad good to bad w/ certain ppl i wish it could all just stay on good tearms caz i hate fighting w/ them. i wish ppl would be able to talk to me about these things too so we can clear them up instead of talking to other ppl about it. I learned a lesson from all this tho. to know what i am getting my self into b4 i get involved in it so that way i know what to do/say and things wouldnt be so god damn confussing. THis is prolly not making any sence to any of you but thats ok caz these are just random thoughts of mine that i needed to let out
If you have any comments that might help me on all this please do i could use all the help i cant get :/