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Post a comment with your name (if you have or don't have a LiveJournal) and I'll tell you my thoughts of you when I first met you compared to the thoughts I have of you now.
You must reply and tell me yours as well.
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You must reply and tell me yours as well.
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Hm.
WELL.
When I first first met you, back at softball I thought you were a weird-o because you wore all black and you were weird.
Then I met you at gym and I thought you were gay because you wore a Good Charlotte sweatshirt but I thought you were pretty cool.
THENN, when LJ introduced us and we became friends, I looked up to you because you drank, did rebelious stuff, and had lots of boys. Throughout our entire relationship that remained the same.
It has ALWAYS pissed me off how you always get what you want. You want a boy, and you get him, and its always a one time thing.
I can't do that and it makes me mad.
I hate you every other day of our relationship but for some reason I can't make it permanent.
NOW: I honeslty don't understand you at all and that makes me mad.
I think that quote you and Kim use isn't true on your part. You tell people exactly what you feel about someone, etc etc but you NEVER tell the actual person.
Maybe you do, but you never did for me, maybe once in a letter about Brian, but we don't speak of that.
I still hate you for what you did. I constintly wonder what you have that I don't. Not in a mean way, just like what am I doing wrong kinda way.
I think about you a lot, not always good stuff... But I think about you a lot and I haven't come to a decision on how I exactly feel about you.
It's obvious I don't hate you... But I guess I'll always just be jealous of you, of every guy you look at once and decide hes yours and get him.
Until I can get over that, I'm going to have to suffice.
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i never tell you how i feel about you cuz i'm hardly ever mad at you. i gave up on caring about what you do a long time ago.
there is absolutely NOTHING to be jealous of. unless of course you want to be hated, then there's plenty to go around. you're the one that everyone always likes. EVERYONE you meet likes you. i get guys, so what? you have about a thousand more friends than i'll ever have. EVER. too bad your friends are fucking FAGGOTS. (with the exception of julie who i have nothing against)
I am so controversial
I am entirely smooth
I admit to the truth
I am the best at what i do < that? because that is the damn truth. i am the best at what i do.
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I am entirely smooth
I admit to the truth < I was referring to that line
I am the best at what i do
And I'm jealous because the one guy I've ever loved chose you over me.
The friends I meet are exactly that friends.
You have best friends and there all close.
I have Julie, not that I need anymore, but you know what I'm saying.
It's that entirely you get who you want, but you get who I want.
I don't have that ability...
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Now you know how i feel. Everyone chooses you over me.
I have close friends because that's how i like it. I don't need a thousand people to make me feel good, i can do it on my own. I don't need a thousand impersonal friends, that's just not how i am. If i could find someone who actually understood me that'd be great but no one does and i'm okay with that.
maybe if you went for people you'd get them but you never try. If you don't do something about things they're just going to sit there. take a dive and just go for someone. so what if you get shut down? bounce the fuck back up
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