i hate that i cant hate u
my birthday is tomarrow...i feel like i shud be happy or excited...but im not. christmas is coming up soon and im really not looking fwd to that either..i dont mean to be a scruge but sometimes i feel like theres no point in celebrating something alone. my birthday wupidyfuckindoo- i just get a lil older, no more leagal, and im jus gonna do pretty much the same thing i do every friday. and ill prolly go to sleep unhappy. or not be able to sleep at all. christmas- my family hates me and i have no girl to share it with..to hold...to buy things for. i dont kno yet but i think i may be going away for a while..i need sum me time to figure out what it is im doing here. or what it is i want..or how to get it. im so confused about everything...i just wanna be that dru again...the one who can laugh openly...the one whose never trying to cover sumting up or going thru intearnal abominations.