Oh how Emo...
You know it's funny I haven't posted a "real" entry in a while. Everything is about a quiz or a shopping list or me responding to random questions etc. etc. etc.
I don't know who I am anymore. I thought I did but I don't. I have my good days and my bad. Some days I am happy and sane and my "normal" self and others I am just sad...and depressed...and pathetic.
How lame
I think for some people to wallow in their self pity is quite unhealthy...but for me it's a great help. I use the emo days to get me pissed off at myself...pissed enough to do something about it. On Monday I have a job interview so hopefully that goes well...funny how one day can change your whole life.
Monday has the potential to set me on the right track or put the final bullet in my head. I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't get it...probably crawl in a hole and write a sad song about how my life sucks and maybe write a pathetic journal where the title is "life sucks" and the music is "the sound of my heart breaking"
I hate it I hate it I hate it
I hate being so emo...it's so pathetic and it gets nothing done...nothing except crappy poetry that doesn't even rhyme...gimme a break.
Oh well...I suppose I could make a list of things to do if this whole "job" thing doesn't work out.
1. Write a children's book
2. Start up my website with the great J.C.
3. Go back to Prague and become an ex-pat
4. Manage some crappy local band and live in my car
5. Move back to the DR and spend the rest of my life working out and eating plantains
6. Move in with my sister and spend the rest of my life working out and eating plantains
7. Stare at the ceiling
8. Take a road trip
9. Ask Oprah for money
There...life is going to be ok
RIGHT?!?
right...
ok?
ok
I don't know who I am anymore. I thought I did but I don't. I have my good days and my bad. Some days I am happy and sane and my "normal" self and others I am just sad...and depressed...and pathetic.
How lame
I think for some people to wallow in their self pity is quite unhealthy...but for me it's a great help. I use the emo days to get me pissed off at myself...pissed enough to do something about it. On Monday I have a job interview so hopefully that goes well...funny how one day can change your whole life.
Monday has the potential to set me on the right track or put the final bullet in my head. I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't get it...probably crawl in a hole and write a sad song about how my life sucks and maybe write a pathetic journal where the title is "life sucks" and the music is "the sound of my heart breaking"
I hate it I hate it I hate it
I hate being so emo...it's so pathetic and it gets nothing done...nothing except crappy poetry that doesn't even rhyme...gimme a break.
Oh well...I suppose I could make a list of things to do if this whole "job" thing doesn't work out.
1. Write a children's book
2. Start up my website with the great J.C.
3. Go back to Prague and become an ex-pat
4. Manage some crappy local band and live in my car
5. Move back to the DR and spend the rest of my life working out and eating plantains
6. Move in with my sister and spend the rest of my life working out and eating plantains
7. Stare at the ceiling
8. Take a road trip
9. Ask Oprah for money
There...life is going to be ok
RIGHT?!?
right...
ok?
ok