Third time...not so much a charm...
So I know all you guys think I've dropped off the face of the earth! lol Like we all thought Louis had! :-P But I kinda need some journaling therapy!
Bradley broke up with me on Tuesday. Initially it was his decision, but we talked about it from Sunday to Tuesday and at the time that it happened, we both knew it was coming and was the best option.
It sucks, yes. But I'm realizing that it is for the best, and that this way, we are going to be able to stay friends, probably as good a friends as we ever were, and that this way, when I do move to Dallas, the healing process will have already happened.
I've been really mature about it...or have tried to be...just a few moments of sobbing, and other than that i've been good. Thinking about it from an outside perspective, trying to be a big boy, and it helps that I'm teaching all day at Cabot (which is gong really well!)
I've even been able to resist calling/texting/facebooking him hahaha...which for those of you who were around for the Justin fiasco, it's a whole different ball game now!
What's been unexpected is that last night...I was a typical boy I guess and called for some lol late night comfort (not full blown slutdom...just slightly trashy hahaha) and it wasn't the 'comfort' that bothered me, but sleeping in the same bed next to someone else really got to me. The whole night I felt super immature and like a high school kid or a freshman! hahaha...I don't know, that just surprised me...
Anyway, so I don't know where all this leaves me...but I needed to vent it out!
I hope all you guys are well...even those of you in central AR, I never see any of you!
Bradley broke up with me on Tuesday. Initially it was his decision, but we talked about it from Sunday to Tuesday and at the time that it happened, we both knew it was coming and was the best option.
It sucks, yes. But I'm realizing that it is for the best, and that this way, we are going to be able to stay friends, probably as good a friends as we ever were, and that this way, when I do move to Dallas, the healing process will have already happened.
I've been really mature about it...or have tried to be...just a few moments of sobbing, and other than that i've been good. Thinking about it from an outside perspective, trying to be a big boy, and it helps that I'm teaching all day at Cabot (which is gong really well!)
I've even been able to resist calling/texting/facebooking him hahaha...which for those of you who were around for the Justin fiasco, it's a whole different ball game now!
What's been unexpected is that last night...I was a typical boy I guess and called for some lol late night comfort (not full blown slutdom...just slightly trashy hahaha) and it wasn't the 'comfort' that bothered me, but sleeping in the same bed next to someone else really got to me. The whole night I felt super immature and like a high school kid or a freshman! hahaha...I don't know, that just surprised me...
Anyway, so I don't know where all this leaves me...but I needed to vent it out!
I hope all you guys are well...even those of you in central AR, I never see any of you!