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It feels like some things will never change.
For nearly three years, it is all I have ever known. I learned the rules of their game, why they choose to play it the way they do, but most of all I know our life and our love. What I never bothered to try to understand was how they could do this to us, for fear of becoming what they are. By now, if they haven't realized that what we have is so much greater than they are, then I don't think they ever will. I feel like we will always have to run or we will never stop fighting to keep our heads above water. All I have ever really wanted is peace. I don't think any one could possibly know how badly I want to feel welcome in their home. Instead they treat me like the plague.
I love your son and your son loves me. He and I aren't going away. It may not be what you want to hear but it is the truth. We make each other happy. Most people don't find this until much later in their lives. And you lack enough heart to take it away from us? One day you will learn that you cannot change us, and when you do I hope you feel awful for trying to.
For nearly three years, it is all I have ever known. I learned the rules of their game, why they choose to play it the way they do, but most of all I know our life and our love. What I never bothered to try to understand was how they could do this to us, for fear of becoming what they are. By now, if they haven't realized that what we have is so much greater than they are, then I don't think they ever will. I feel like we will always have to run or we will never stop fighting to keep our heads above water. All I have ever really wanted is peace. I don't think any one could possibly know how badly I want to feel welcome in their home. Instead they treat me like the plague.
I love your son and your son loves me. He and I aren't going away. It may not be what you want to hear but it is the truth. We make each other happy. Most people don't find this until much later in their lives. And you lack enough heart to take it away from us? One day you will learn that you cannot change us, and when you do I hope you feel awful for trying to.